Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Staggering in Slowness

Feel so horrible about my procrastination and slowness. This slowness of mine is hindering me from doing more for God. I know I can do more for Him... it's just that my time management is simply that of procrastination.

Yeah, some of you might tell me to just buck up and move on. Easy for you to say... I'll just copy and paste Leo Tolstoy's reply:
"If I know the way home and am walking along it drunkenly, is it any less the right way because I am staggering from side to side! If it is not the right way, then show me another way; but if I stagger and lose the way, you must help me, you must keep me on the true path, just as I am ready to support you. Do not mislead me, do not be glad that I have got lost, do not shout out joyfully:'Look at him! He said he was going home, but there he is crawling into a bog!' No, do not gloat, but give me your help and support." - Leo Tolstoy in a personal letter

Sorry, I know I sound frustrated. I ... am frustrated. "The good I want to do, I do not do..." Lord, help me overcome... and thank You that You still choose to use even someone as fallen as me, in spite of all my weaknesses, failures and sins. It is so You who live in me, and not I... but Christ. That the world can see whatever good I've done is not yeuann but Christ who lives in me.

But all the more, since Your Spirit lives in me... therefore I should work all the harder. Yet not I, but the grace of God...

1 Cor 15:10
"But by the grace of God I am what I am, and his grace to me was not without effect. No, I worked harder than all of them--yet not I, but the grace of God that was with me."

Oh God, help me not take Your grace for granted. Help me work with all my heart, though I am less than the least of all Your people. In Jesus' most lovely name I pray Amen.


the worm said...

Hey bro, I think I felt a little this way recently, when I realised how in need of encouragement we are, especially when we're down.

How a simple, "I love the photographs you take", can keep me going on just taking a little more photos.

I think we struggle with the same problem, so I can't really show you the way, but I want to tell you that you are not alone. I know many who struggle with this same irritating problem of procrastination.

Let's push each other on! Especially those who don't have this problem! Don't think it's easy cause it's easy for you. Observe people who struggle and help them! :)Something we might all overlook at times.

I procrastinate less when people put pressure on me. I didn't do something for very long, Weiling just told me to do it, and I did it the next week.

Pressure works for procrastination for me. :)

yeu@nn said...

Thanks so much Shuyi for your encouragement! :D Haha... really appreciate it lots! It's great to know that I'm not alone in this struggle hee.