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Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Reciprocity? "'Tis More Blessed To Give Than To Receive"

A dear friend wrote about reciprociation. He/she wrote:
reciprocate - the word that i have been thinking about.
wat degree of reciprocation do i expect? am i being unreasonable? i can't impose my standards/expectations onto another person. or should i treat u back the same way
His post made me ponder for quite a while. Because I've gone through quite a number of times where I struggled with feelings of being unappreciated, especially during my NUS days, when I tried to connect with some brothers, but got rebuffed and rejected. It discouraged me very much then.

However, Jiayan wrote a wonderful piece about this:
I was wondering about some questions - ministry, relationships, self-preservation. Yes, self-preservation. This has been shared by Pastor Jeff a few weeks back during his sermon. It reminds me of the image of a porcupine. Any step closer and out comes the spikes. Have you ever seen one before? I did and it's true, before u can even reach them, it happens. They defend.

This led me to think about Paul, one of the heroes in the bible. How in the world did he manage to find zeal to serve God in his busyness and yet able to stay focused, moving forward in his ministry? Because he is Paul? Well, isn't he human afterall? Doesn't he have needs, just any one of us. I am sure his flesh will be tested, his heart tempted to stray.

As I read through Acts, I see Paul going from one place to another preaching the WOG, testifying to the truth of the gospel. Despite his amazing persuasive skills, he was not able to convince all his audience and was even being abused by them. Even after trying his best, yes. [read more!]
Do read her post; I think you will be greatly encouraged. :) May we all learn to jump for joy as we enter into the fellowship of sharing in the sufferings of Jesus our dear Lord and Saviour, and so, to become like Him in His death! Yes and amen!

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

HopeKids Skit: Romeo & Juliet, Zhnged

And Shakespeare turns in his grave...

Characters:
1. Romeo: Eilton
2. Juliet: Joey
3. Coconut tree: Wan Yueh


[Coconut tree walks in to the middle of the stage. He/she waves hello to the audience]

Coconut tree: Hi everyone! I'm a coconut tree. [She then starts waving her hands around like a coconut tree in the wind]

[Our Juliet comes in from the left side of the stage with a nice-looking fan. She looks around, fanning herself, fluttering her eyes and basically looking all dainty and delicate. She is wearing a large frilly skirt and some nice hairdo maybe an Alice-style hairband...]

Juliet: [sweetly, gushingly even, gliding gracefully, fanning herself slowly] Oh Romeo! oh Romeo! Whereforth art thou?

[She suddenly switches to angry mode, stomping up and down]

WHERE IN THE WORLD ARE YOU?! I've been trying to get you on the phone!

[She suddenly switches to mournful mode - the epitome of pity]

Oh... how I miss you! I wish you were here with me... but you seem so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so, so (pants) far away...

[She turns to audience frantically]

Have you seen my beloved? Tell him I am faint with LURRRRVE... Have you seen him? Oh! Tell me! Have you? Tell me, I pray!

[She jumps into audience and starts looking around for Romeo, fanning herself frantically all the while. But she can't find Romeo, so she hops back onto the stage.]

BOOOHOOOHOOO! My darling Romeo is far far away! He's gone to Zanzibar, to Timbuktu, to Siberia! He'll never come back for many a day!

[She bursts into tears, sits down on the stage in front of the coconut tree and covers her face with her palms]

[Romeo suddenly sneaks in among the audience. He stage-whispers to the audience.]

Romeo: Shhh, friends! Don't tell my darling Juliet that I'm here! I'm not far away, I'm very near!

Juliet: Booohooohooo! Oh Romeo, oh Romeo, whereforth art thou?

Romeo: Behold! Is that my darling Juliet I hear? Oh my darling, thou shalt not fear! But... [turns to the audience] I think I will give her a little surprise!

Juliet: Booohooohooo! Oh Romeo, oh Romeo, whereforth art thou?

Romeo: I'm coming, I'm coming, my dear! [goes onto the stage from the left side]

[Romeo turns his back to the audience. Out of his jacket, he whips out a beautiful flower and whirls around to face the audience again with a grand flourish, ending with the rose in his teeth]

Romeo: Ah... [sniffs rose deeply] I will place it besides my darling Juliet!

[Romeo sneaks up behind Juliet. He secretly places the rose on Juliet's left side, and taps her on her left shoulder. Then he leaps to the other side, taking care not to be seen by Juliet]

Juliet: Ohhhh! A rose! It looks....

[we would expect her to say 'lovely' or 'beautiful' but...]

...DELICIOUS! Mmmmm... yum yum...

[petal dangles out of her mouth]

Oh! Where did the rose come from? Could my Romeo boy be near... but that can't be! He was supposed to be far far faaaaaaaar away...

[Romeo laughs silently, taking care not to be seen by Juliet.]

Romeo: Ah! I shall now surprise her with a beautiful love poem! Hmm...! I don't have any paper... oh! I have!

[takes out a fifty-dollar note]

Lemme write some poetry on it for her!

[Romeo writes some cheesy love poem]

Romeo: "How do I love thee? Let me count the ways..." Ah, a nice poem indeed! I'm sure my love Juliet will LOVE it....

[Romeo then drops the fifty dollar note on Juliet's right hand side and taps Juliet on her right shoulder. He then runs to hide behind our friendly coconut tree]

Juliet: OH! Such a lovely poem... I especially love the number on it! Oh! Could my Romeo be NEAR? But how can that be? I will arise now, and go to look for him!

[Juliet gets up and starts looking around.]

Juliet: Oh Romeo, oh Romeo, where forth art thou?

Coconut tree: Here!

Romeo: Shh, you silly! You're a TREE! Trees don't talk!

Coconut tree: Well, *I* talk! So there!

Juliet: What? Did I hear that tree talking? Maybe my Romeo boy might be behind the tree!

[MM: Start playing the Indian-style "Twinkle twinkle little star" [get the song from here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y3D2tqw64_4&feature=related]

[Juliet takes a look at the right, Romeo goes to the left... and then J looks to the left, R hops to the right... and finally, R lets himself be seen by J... and well, if you've seen a Bollywood dance around a coconut tree, you get the idea ;]


Juliet: OH! ROMEEEEEEEO!!! YOU'RE HERE! AND I THOUGHT YOU WERE FAR FAR AWAY...

[R and J do a Bollywood-style dance around the coconut tree for 20 seconds... can look to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IiEk2wXVyfs&feature=related for inspiration haha]

[All to end with a dramatic dance flourish and then R and J go happily off the stage]




Host: Just like how Romeo was not far away from Juliet even though Juliet couldn't see him, so God also is not far away - He is always with us even though we can't always see Him! That reminds me of something... 我跟耶稣在椰子下!

Today’s Big Point is …. “God is not far away, He is with us”

Singapore's MDA rapped over conflict of interest

Was quite surprised to read some time ago in the Straits Times about the significant details of the Attorney-General's Office rapping various government agencies (with big figures being published some more). Is this a start towards greater government transparency in Singapore? *hopeful*

Anyway, think just want to say thanks to the A-G guys for taking on the tough job of auditing the other government agencies. =)

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Evian Babies! :D



Oh man! This is good... haha... think it's from the '80s or '90s. =D

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Read Lydia Lim's article in yesterday's Straits Time. On about the danger of closed-minded communities.

And she voiced her concerns about the growth of religious communities that are becoming increasingly closed. Valid concerns such as, say, a Christian business with Christian and non-Christian employees. The non-Christian employees voice their concern about the possibility of preferential treatment for the Christians.

Or the insularity of Christian groups with regards to inter-faith dialogues and so on.

Thought about it. Think yes, it's true - Christianity IS an exclusivistic faith in the sense that we believe Jesus' own words: "I am the Way and the Truth and the Life. No one comes to the Father except through me." And the apostles voiced out in public: "Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to men by which we must be saved."

I think you can't get any more exclusive than that!

But ... I think the exclusivity issue of Christianity is restricted to the claims of Jesus' divinity. Apart from that, Christianity is, for all the accusations about it being exclusive, is wonderfully diverse. People from every nation, tribe, people and tongue. The Bible has been translated into God-knows-how-many languages. And not to mention that the hope of the gospel, that there is a God who made all mankind, and that we are all equal before God, and that Christ came to die for all mankind...

It is so incredibly universal. Crossing across ethnic divides. Cultural divides. Political divides. Family divides. Gender divides. And so on and so forth.

That one day, with one wonderful voice, we shall see a grand multitude that no one can count, people from every nation, every tribe, every people, every tongue.





But what then about Christianity in Singapore? I think culturally-wise, unfortunately, religion is generally closely associated with ethnicity. Even for Christianity, unfortunately, the churches in Singapore are generally homogenous ethnic groupings, and from what I know so far, also by social groupings.

Sigh. I think this is the current situation so far.

I think what I've been doing - but I need to work harder - is to bless my Indian neighbours. I've been blessed to have them as my neighbours - they're very nice Hindus. Visited them and chatted with them... and well, we have a lot in common haha. Like soccer? eating? playing DOTA? :)

Still, I really hope I can share the gospel with them soon.

Yup. Christianity will always itself in trouble with the authorities from time to time. After all the power of the apostles' preaching, causing many to turn to Christ, caused those from other religions to be really agitated. So we're not alone.

But I think we should do our best to be peacemakers, even though we're being accused of being agitators and troublemakers. Such as building friendships with other ethnic groups (added: and other faiths). I mean, we Christians profess to believe in a gospel that is universal and freely available for all men, regardless of race, language or religion, right? So shouldn't we be living it out all the more vigorously in our lives?

It's natural, yes, to want to be in the same kind of grouping... but it's supernatural to have very different people bonded together as one family. Clearly, what is supernatural must overrides what is natural.

And only the power of Christ's work on the Cross and the power of the Holy Spirit are able to do such a difficult and even impossible thing.

That is the power, the glory of a united church.

Now you tell me, isn't that God's dream? To see white men and black men side-by-side. To see Chinese, Indian and Malay all worshipping God together. To see different language-speakers united in a common love... to see different nationalities...

Different social groupings even. The rich and poor serving one another. The masters kneeling down to wash the feet of the servants.

I just watched "Faith Like Potatoes". The white farmer was telling his black farm workers about his trip to his ancestors' homeland (which was Scotland). And he was telling them about his own clan - which is very similar in concept to the blacks' tribes.

Then one of his senior farm workers asked him, "How come you didn't stay there? No offense, but I'm curious as to why white people like to have one foot in one land and another in ours! *hearty guffaw*"

The white farmer thought about it and spoke respectfully... affectionately, even. He replied, "It's true. I'm proud of my Scottish heritage. But let it be known that I am a white African... and you are my Christian brother."

Whoa. It was such a touching moment.

Yup... :)

Ha. I'm so glad that my church has different ethnicities... Indian, Thai, Malay, Vietnamese, Chinese, German and so on. But... it could be so much more. We gotta step out of our comfort zones. The gospel is truly for everyone.

That's why I'm so proud of my sub-district vision and goals. To outreach to more people groups too. :D

Ha! All the more being a Christian, I should be more eager to make new friends with people from other cultures!



Haha. On a side-note, the Nurture Programme is taking a new step. We're joining with Ms Raja's group - a marvellous lady is she - with so many children. It's a very heartwarming sight to see so many children of different ethnic groups mingling together. (I refuse to use the horrid word "races", for there is only one race (on Earth right now) - the human race.)

And haha that's part of the vision that God gave me. Sharing the story of Jesus to children from all sorts of different ethnicities. Different kinds of families. So cool. So wonderful. So exciting! :D

Added:
Oh oh, looking at what I wrote last night... haha, I think I gotta add that I don't talk about Jesus at the Nurture programme... it's secular mah... =) it's about serving the community out of love. "Love your neighbour as yourself."

But think next time, if I'm able to do this as part of a missions outreach programme... cool! :)

Friday, July 17, 2009

The Little Plane (And Pilot) Who Could Fly - And So Can You Too


I was reading this fascinating article just now, on a pilot's trans-Atlantic journey... and no, it wasn't Charles Lindbergh, but one of Lindbergh's young assistants who made the journey. And the story really captivated me! In fact, officials had considered his used plane too un-airworthy to fly, let alone a trans-Atlantic ocean crossing...
Lindbergh's epic solo flight left a lasting impression on young Corrigan, who resolved to make a similar flight. He bought the Robin, used, in 1933 and spent a couple of years modifying the plane, trying to get it rated airworthy enough for certification. He never did, and at one point officials in California grounded the rattling bucket of bolts -- which Corrigan had named Sunshine -- for six months.
But Corrigan went and zhnged his plane as best as he could, a 20th-century Millenium Falcon as it were. And yes, his plane was just as recalcitrant and unpredictable.
Finally, in 1938, he was ready. Armed with a conditional permit, Corrigan flew to New York. He took off in the early-morning fog of Floyd Bennett Field in Brooklyn on July 17, ostensibly bound for California. This is where things get a bit murky.

Corrigan steadfastly maintained, with a twinkle in his eye, that he was indeed intending to fly to California but was compelled to take off to the east because of the weather, and got turned around owing to a balky compass on board. He said he didn't discover his navigational error until he was 26 hours into the flight, a claim that lifted more than a few eyebrows.

The thing is, Sunshine really was a crate. It was patched up and lashed together and, worse, during the California-New York flight had developed a gas leak that Corrigan decided he didn't have time to repair. Gasoline actually leaked into the cockpit while the plane was over the Atlantic. Corrigan solved that problem by using a screwdriver to punch a hole in the cockpit floor.

So, after a flight of 28 hours, 13 minutes, Corrigan reached Baldonnel Airfield in Dublin in a plane that was structurally unsound, leaking fuel, lacking a reliable compass and equipped with reserve fuel tanks mounted in such a way that they blocked his straight-ahead view.
Fantastic... Han Solo would have been so proud.


Personally, I was very inspired by this story. Because this Corrigan dared. Of course, I think he was a bit foolhardy, but hey, given his resources and dreams... he didn't die waiting for a better day or a better machine. He cast his bread upon the waters, so as to speak, and it returned back to him.

And more people cheered for him than for his predecessor, Charles Lindbergh, because of the daringness and calculated (I trust it was!) risk that Corrigan took. I think Someone Up There really likes him. =)

Likewise, I wonder how many times have I been willing to do something great for God? Or let myself remain grounded? I'm not saying that we should be foolish and not listen to the wiser voices who say you're not ready... but just because you're grounded, like that little plane, doesn't mean you're permanently grounded.

Just take time to sharpen, to hone, to repair and rebuild...

And when the time comes, you will be able to make it to the other side.

And so what if I'm a crate, just like that little plane? God delights in using jars of clay to do His marvellous work on earth. He takes you, me, him, her... it, even... the weak things of the world to shame the strong. The lowly things, the despised things, the things that are not.

All the pilot asked for from the little plane was faithfulness. And it could, and it did.

All the Lord asked for from you and me was faithfulness. And we could, and we did.
"Fly," he said. "We can't," said they.
So he pushed them, and they flew.


I think God has placed it in a man's heart to want to leave the safety of home, of his mother's arms, of the tether that holds him to the spaceship safely. To throw yourself out into the wide, wide unknown, and explore what lies in there.

To go past that point of no return.

As I reflect, I think all these little everyday adventures are genuine steps of discovery. We who want to be men must once in a while step out into the brave unknown. Because we were not meant to stay in harbour. True, a ship is safe in harbour, but that was not what a ship was designed for. To rule the waves, to storm the seas, to discover new lands.

That's why when every time Leonard Nimoy's grave voiceover booms at the end of a Star Trek movie...
Space... the Final Frontier. ... to explore strange new worlds, to seek out new life forms and new civilizations, to boldly go where no man has gone before.
... whoa, a shivery tingle runs up my spine.

I think God has called us men to come live a radically different life. To live a life that is counter-cultural, to be revolutionary.

I think our society, with its emphasis on safety and security, may not be very conducive to making strong men. Not that I'm complaining, but all the more we have to learn to train ourselves to step out.

Because we don't want to raise up a generation of weak-willed disciples who aren't willing to commit to loving God and loving people, who aren't willing to sacrifice their comforts... let alone die for Jesus. We want a twenty-first century as fresh as the first church.

Like how some people accused Billy Graham, when he was evangelising and preaching the Gospel boldly in public, of setting the church back 50 years. Billy Graham hung his head and said, "Men, I am very deeply ashamed. I have been trying to set the church back 2000 years."

I've been thinking too. One key issue for me is that I like to wait until someone asks me to do something. I don't find it easy to inspire or to innovate others. But does it really matter? We are all called to be leaders, to be fishers of men, as long as we come follow Jesus Christ. We can all fly.

We can resist the siren call of the world, by choosing to march to the beat of a different drummer - not so much in the things we do, but the reasons behind why we do what we do. The world says quit your job because it doesn't pay you well. But if God says, stay in here till I tell you otherwise... then how now, cash cow?

Or let's say you're in a comfortable, well-paying job - in the middle of a recession some more! But God calls you to drop your nets and go. Then go you must, or else you risk losing the destiny He has in store for you.



Finally, I was also thinking of one more thing. I realised it's not only about doing great things for God. It's... also about getting to know the great God himself. Do we dare draw nearer and nearer to the beautiful God himself? The One who dwells in unapproachable light? Like a tiny spaceship making a journey into the centre of the Sun...

John the apostle walked and talked with Jesus for three years or so. He even saw his Master transfigured for one eternal moment... and even saw him risen in all his physical glory, the Fulfillment of all the prophets.

But despite knowing Christ so intimately on earth... when Jesus appeared to John again in Revelation, John saw Jesus, with His blazing eyes and shining face... and he dropped as though dead.

It makes me think. How much have I dared to let God shine into my heart? How much have I dared to let His Word speak into my soul?
John 3:19-20
This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but men loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed.
So many times we talk of doing great things for God... but have we set our hearts on approaching God Himself? To draw, and draw nearer to Him?
"Father, draw me nearer
Draw me nearer
To the beauty
Of Your holiness..."
Shall we dare drop our nets and follow Him? To cross the Rubicon, burning our ploughs and bridges?

To know, and know deeper... until we find ourselves burning more and more brightly, shining like the Son in all His glory? In righteousness, truth and purity? In faith, hope and love?

To fly, and fly closer... until we touch the very face of God Himself?

Listen now to the pounding sound of the Drummer. He calls us now to come follow Him. To bring our lives, as a daily offering, of worship to the Servant King.
"Ah, but a man's reach should exceed his grasp,
Or what's a heaven for?"

- Robert Browning

Thursday, July 16, 2009

The Relevant Word

I read Peter Truong's blog just now, and was very encouraged by his sharing on Psalm 145:1-10.
Recently, I was reminded that our God is an unchanging God. Many things may change around us but God will remain the same. The economy is being affected by the Global Financial Crisis. People are losing their jobs. The swine flu is spreading around the world. However, God is still present. God is still in control. Let us not lose sight of God in the midst of troubled times. God still cares and has the power to intervene in our lives. Look to God. I found great assurance of God's love and power by reading Psalms 145:1-10.
Think one thing I was learnt from Peter Truong's example is that I can use the Scriptures to help me make sense of what is going on in the world today - and not just my everyday living, but the world at large.

It's refreshing 'cos I've been ploughing through the Psalms and trying to make sense of what the Psalms say to me. I guess I've been feeling a bit dry, but still I plough on, reminding myself to keep my desire for God central. To seek Him with all my heart through reading his words.

Hee. I think God's Word is like an infrared camera. My uncle last time showed me his digital SLR (Huaqiang, SLR... haha...) and its infrared ability... cool! I was surprised to see how even in the darkest areas, everything glowed in grayscale as though it were daylight!

So just like how an infrared camera can help bring out even the most well-hidden objects in the darkest night, it's the same with learning to view the world's current affairs and my own daily circumstances through God's Word. This is part and parcel of learning how to meditate on God's Word (Psalm 1).

Personally, I think though experiences and careful human wisdom can help us appreciate and understand God's Word so much better, ultimately, our worldviews should never interpret God's Word no matter how benign they may be. On the contrary, God's Word is to be the ultimate basis of all our understanding and interpretation of the world and our daily affairs.

I know it sounds circular, what I wrote just now. William Cowper put it so much more eloquently and concisely:
Blind unbelief is sure to err and scan His work in vain;
God is His own interpreter, and He will make it plain.


:)



Btw I read in the Straits Times today about the Euphrates River drying up. The writer mentioned that the Bible says that one of the signs of the end-times is that the Euphrates River will dry up.

Read what the New York Times says: Iraq Suffers as the Euphrates River Dwindles
The shrinking of the Euphrates, a river so crucial to the birth of civilization that the Book of Revelation prophesied its drying up as a sign of the end, has decimated farms along its banks, left fishermen impoverished and depleted riverside towns as farmers flee to the cities looking for work.


Gosh! It's really happening before our very own eyes... Jesus is coming back very soon! :)
Revelation 16:15
"Behold, I come like a thief! Blessed is he who stays awake and keeps his clothes with him, so that he may not go naked and be shamefully exposed."
I remember reading Revelation when I was a young boy in primary school... And those words made me feel afraid. Thank God! "'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear..." 'Cos it made me realise the need to repent of my sins and receive Christ into my heart. :D

Yup... Jesus came so silently and innocently in His First Coming, as a helpless baby in a manger... that only a few lowly shepherds and some pagan wise men were able to recognize Him as the King of Kings. And I guess, even now, He's coming very silently, but the signs are there already. So let's prepare our hearts to welcome Him back... and let's hurry to tell others about Him!

'Cos while we talk about the Second Coming of Jesus Christ... half of the world has never even heard of the First.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Cycling in Singapore

Came across this nice blog on cycling... in Singapore! :) Apparently Mr Brown himself frequents this blog too!

Hee. I think I'm becoming more and more a cycling geek. Partly due to Ellson's enthusiastic sharing about his own bicycle... (and his letting me try his bike. Gosh. It's like... a flying carpet or something!)

Anyway, here's an interesting graph:

It shows that the more cyclists there are on the roads, the safer it becomes for every cyclist - because motorists are made more aware of cyclists. So, remember, if you're cycling on the road too, you're one more advertisement for road safety! :) Every cyclist counts... make your voice (or horn) heard!

That reminds me. I need to zhng my bike with some bright lights (gimme a xenon!) ASAP. Or I'm going to be roadkill one day...

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Lord, please help me grow in a spiritual desire for You. And for a real burden to see my CG grow spiritually... to return back to the basics once again, all of us. Help me yield daily to Your Holy Spirit, to be led by Your Spirit. Teach me the way I should go, for to You I lift up my soul.

Return me back once again to the basics of it all... In Jesus' name, amen!

Monday, July 13, 2009

I'm Amazed!

I was browsing through one of Huanyan's blog posts, when I came across his post from last Thursday. And then I came to this part:
The LORD will make you the head, not the tail. If you pay attention to the commands of the LORD your God that I give you this day and carefully follow them, you will always be at the top, never at the bottom.

A lot of times we want to be at the top and be the head. This is understandable. But the question here, are we following God first? The pre-condition here is obvious. Pay attention to the commands and carefully follow them. Jesus was to substantiate this with a famous saying:

But seek first His Kingdom and righteousnes and all these things will be given to you as well

Are we following God? Are we putting His Kingdom as our priority? Or is it that the girl that you have been going out with had taken over God as the priority? Or is it that you have treated your job and your success more important than God?
Gosh! It's the same thing that I was thinking about last Saturday (see my previous blog post)...

And yet another brother (I can't remember whether it was HQ or Jiehui or Ps Jeff or someone else) also mentioned the same thing on Sunday...

Somehow I have the feeling that it may have started from Ps Simon's sermon on returning to our first love... and the call to repent of our sin of compromise..

You know what this could mean? That the Lord is somehow giving a whole bunch of us in our church the same fresh insight at the same time.

Gosh! And the message that God may be giving to our church, both corporately and individually is: Return back to Jesus, our first love and seek first His kingdom and His righteousness... we want success in ministry, in work, in relationships and so on... but God wants us, first and foremost, to consecrate our hearts to Him and Him alone first and foremost!

And that sounds like a fresh wind of revival is starting to take us by storm!

Like the first buds of spring, so shall our hearts be!

Saturday, July 11, 2009

To Find Your Direction In Life, Or To Follow Christ?

I was talking with a brother today over lunch. He told me he had just left church - not only Hope, but also church. One thing that he said I still remember: "A lot of the brothers and sisters in church don't have a sense of direction in life. When I ask them what they want to do in life, besides the spiritual aspects of their lives, they don't have any idea. Essentially, it's 'I'll do what God wants me to do.'"

So I was chewing on that remark for a while. And I think I see what he means. Of course, there were other things that he was unhappy about, but I ain't sharing it here of course.

However, I think... I must disagree with what I understand to be the underlying premise about having a direction in life. It's true that it's very important to have a purpose and direction in life, to know what you want to do. But... like all good gifts, it is possible for it to become corrupted.

The world says, "Find what you want to do in life, and follow your heart." And so all those Christians who have received Christ, and found their old worldviews radically challenged, and turned upside-down, are told, even by other well-meaning brothers and sisters, that they must have a purpose and vision in life.

The thing is... the world expects us to be independent, to 'boldly go where no man has gone before'. With the worldly pragmatism of the Romans, the world praises those who have it made. They put on a pedestals those who, in Winston Churchill's words, are 'masters and captains of our souls.' You who shall never surrender, we salute thee!

It is possible even to import such a worldly mindset into religion. To bring an expectation that one should have - in unspoken terms - a career in religion. To rise through the ranks, from being a member, to core team, to pastor, to church-planter... wow! Your spiritual stature has increased! Level up!

It's not wrong to want to know the purpose and meaning of your life. As the Teacher said in Ecclesiastes, "[God] has placed eternity into the hearts of men..." That's why "The Purpose-Driven Life" is an international best-seller, even in the non-Christian settings.

For the very title itself speaks of that ancient abyss in the human heart. "Deep calls to deep." An aching void that cries out, "Surely there must be more to life than this." And for the Christian too: "More than just going to church, to caregroup, to serving in ministry... surely there was something more to this when I decided to become a Christian?"

The thing is... we need to learn to let go of this desire for a direction, a vision first. We need to desire Christ first and foremost. The world says, "Find a direction in life, and follow it." But Jesus said, "Follow ME."

You see, the purpose of life is not even about finding out what God wants you to. First and foremost... follow HIM. As St. Augustine wrote, "Our hearts are restless, until they find rest in Thee."

And I think that's something that we may have neglected to teach the younger ones. To learn to lose everything, throw all their hopes and dreams, and lose themselves utterly into the arms of Christ. To be abandoned unto God.

We need to teach them to set Christ as Lord in their hearts. Like how Paul put it so simply: "But whatever was to my gain, I now consider them as loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ my Lord."

We focus so much on getting our younger ones to do great and mighty things. But I think we've forgotten the first love of it all... LOVE GOD TOTALLY.

And I think it's all the more sweetly ironic, because God has given me a very clear direction and calling now, after all these years. I remember it was a far cry from when one bro last time asked me what I wanted to do in life. And I remember the shame that one non-Christian threw scorn upon me for not having a sense of direction last time. I felt so ashamed, as though I'd failed God. But thank God that through all these years... I remember one key advice from a wise brother: "Keep your desire for God central."

We want God to show us His direction and plans for our lives, but we don't want Him to be the absolute Lord and Centre of our lives. Dear friends, how can this be? Without a pivot, how can the Compass swing to show us the way to go?

So that's why I've come to realise that perhaps it's not so bad after all, this phrase: "I'm not sure... but I'll do whatever God wants me to do."

I think that's the kind of attitude that the Lord is looking for. A heart of willing surrender. First, love God, and everything will then follow. Follow Christ, and He will make you fishers of men. Deny yourself and take up your cross. Though the world considers it utter foolishness, that you have no idea what you want to do, save for waiting upon God to tell you... that is the way of the Cross. "Let this mind be in you..." For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoeever loses his life for Jesus and for the Gospel will find it. What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, but lose his soul?

And come to think of it, there are a few brothers, who, though in the eyes of the world, seem to be "directionless"... but however, their depth of character and love for God have shown me the way. They've set example for me. I've seen a better way to live - and it's in this church. For my spiritual family. In this despised, outcast, rag-tag army, I've seen a generation of a broken people rising up in faith.
Though my brothers and sisters go about in sheepskins and goatskins, destitute, persecuted and mistreated, though they wander in deserts and mountains, and in caves and holes in the ground -
though they work in lowly paid jobs, though they throw aside the riches and opportunities of the world, though they give up chances to serve in high positions, though they look like they look like they have no sense of direction, save for "wherever God calls me to go, I'll go..." - I say the world is not worthy of them.

So I want to throw my lot in with these disgraced people. I want to stand together with them with one heart - to love God and love one another. And to do the work He wants us to do. Let us, then, go to Jesus outside the camp, bearing the disgrace He bore. For here we do not have an enduring city, but we are looking for the city that is to come.



Added:
I think I have to clarify something here. I'm not saying that we shouldn't therefore be in the world. No, not so. We should aim to glorify God with everything we do. But let's not become consumed with the desire for "success", be it in the "secular" or the "religious" sense.
Galatians 5:6
"For in Christ Jesus neither circumcision nor uncircumcision has any value. The only thing that counts is faith expressing itself through love."
Rather, what I believe is that we must take extra care to make sure that nothing else ever overtakes our first love for Christ in our lives. Not even the finest things that we intend to do for God. Our relationship with God comes first and foremost. And then our relationships with others. Love God with everything you've got and everything that's in you, and love your neighbour as yourself. The first and second greatest commandments.

Added:
I had an impromptu catch-up with Yufen today. And we both talked... and we ended up at the same conclusion independently! :) Cool... Yup! So let's not put the cart before the horse - let's seek to follow CHRIST first and foremost, with this attitude "To live is Christ, and to die is gain," and then He will show us what He has in mind for us.