Humility?

just a bit mel. thinking about it. i want to be sweet again. haha. hmm. "in humility consider others better than yourselves."

yet... "only let us live up to wat we have alr attained."

think it's such a hard thing to be humble. esp when you wonder abt having to be firm... yet also drawing the line at false humility... you don't want to be smarmy, yet you really want to have a genuinely sweet spirit. yet you also need to be firm and stand your ground sometimes, and reject some advice that is not sound...

is humility found in taking advice?
is humility lowering yourself?
or is it considering others better than yourselves?

Sometimes i'm confused as where to draw the line. or am i trying to be humble bcos i think ppl will like it? (oh i confess i do...) yet.. in a way it's a better kind than thinking tt ppl's praises don't even matter... tt you are above their praises.

ah. then that's pride alr. but if one thinks himself so highly... and thank God tt he's not like tt...

humility is such a hard thing to pursue. pride is so insidious.

sometimes you have to be confident for the sake of your team, for you are the only one who knows wat needs to be done. yet others give feedback, and sometimes u wonder whether u're right in telling them that their advice isn't suitable for this particular situation. Or am i missing something out here?

God, have mercy on me a sinner.