Blessed be the name of the Lord
You give... and You take away...
Blessed be Your name forever and ever
Amen and amen.

Something happened today. It's not a happy thing, and definitely it can be seen as a failure. Yet... I'm not that sad... strangely, I also feel a little happy... yet... unhappy... but it's enough to bring a tear to my eyes. A bittersweet sense of feeling.

Thank God for a dear friend who shared this with me just now:
"like shuo bu chu de ku zhong
that feeling on the inside tats unexplanable and v broken...
like a bit sweet also...... but have to let go
so pain
but God's peace w u"

I'm so amazed. Everything is right on time. I sense the next stage of God's calling coming into place. But... oh... it has to be let go of. It hurts. But yet, I feel a strange sense of God's peace with me. The peace of God that surpasses all understanding.

I guess... seeing it from the worldly perspective, it's a failure. But seeing it from God's perspective... it's just the next booster stage in a rocket launch. Where you let go of the deadweight engines that have run out of fuel, so that the next engines can take over.

*deep breath*

Thank God for His grace and mercy. and mercy. and mercy. Hallelujah and amen. Worthy is the Lord God Almighty, who was, and is, and is to come.

And I see that God doesn't call for perfect people, but He perfects broken people and uses them as He goes along.

=') but oh, how broken i feel. hallelujah. =)