Whee! There's so many things that I want to write down today... thank God for His answering my prayer for an MC today... I needed it because I have a bad backache (maybe it's a strain, I'm not sure, but it hurt bad enough that I kept tossing and turning last night till I slept on the floor instead)...

But, I'm really very thankful to God for the word that He spoke to me today when I was reading Romans 10: "As the Scriptures say: 'Anyone who trusts in Him will never be put to shame.'"

It came as a reply to my prayer to God how I was feeling very ashamed of myself over all the past failures that I'd committed against Him, and my fears that I wouldn't have any second chance... I know I know the doctrine of redemption, propitation and forgiveness... but sometimes the bandwidth between the mind and the heart is a bit laggy at times.

Not just so, the next verses really renewed my spirits again: "For there is no difference between Jew and Gentile—the same Lord is Lord of all and richly blesses all who call on him, for, "Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved."

Hee! This verse reminded me of God's nature, that He is indeed a generous God - He richly blesses all who call on Him... it's regardless of what I am... as long as I call on Him in truth, He hears.

And at this point, I'm refreshed again of being reminded again why I do what I do... not because I should, even though that is good, but simply because I am so grateful to my Saviour. :D

How can we forget what You've done for us, Lord? :D

So this afternoon, I was just contemplating, thinking about things. And I was also reading the book "Social Intelligence" - after finishing my "Boundaries" book. Oh! I should read the book together with God... it's so much more fun that way! :D

Flashbacks
Oh yes! I think God put some flashbacks of some things that happened, to clarify His direction for me even more clearly:

We were worshipping God yesterday during service, and I, on the spur of the moment, decided to share my idea about opening up a cafe with God. And as I waited, I just get this quiet impression that He said, "Don't. I have better plans for you than that."

And hee, thank God so much for the time with Weizhu last Saturday, when we did the script + storyboard for some children's story-telling event... thank God that the new storyline is so much better!

*pause*

Perhaps here, it seems clearer and clearer that His calling for me is NOT in business (which my CALIPER test profile shows pretty well), but rather, He's calling me to tell stories. But hmm!

I'm stuck here. Since it seems clear to me that He's calling me into the area of storytelling... hmm... Lord, where to from here?