I think one of the saddest things that you can experience is when you have friends, and through some fault and mistake of yours, you make them feel uncomfortable and/or turn them off.

God, I don't know how to see You in the picture here, honestly. I feel ashamed and hopeless, that, "Huh, I did it again? sigh, why am I so like that? Why don't I learn from my experiences?"

I recognise it as worldly sorrow... yet it feels so... like gastric, I think. Feel I can't get up and move on.

Jesus, hold my hand...

I'm so sorry, Jesus, really, I am... I don't want to be the same anymore. Please take my hand and help me up again. In Your mighty name, Amen.