He is all I need

Wow... SUPER long time i nvr blogged... haha... sorry, but i've been posting... it's just tt I posted most of my blogs at NUS East's blog...

So many things... but just to update y'all... changed shepherds already... had a very fun n 'romantic' high-tea wif my old shep, Guo Qiang, at Checkers cafe at Somerset after service... very blessed n encouraged by the letter that he gave me.

And my new shep is ... Weizhu! :D

haha... lots more to share, but in a nutshell, God did some really wonderful stuff, including the way that He brought Weizhu and me tog last wk... haha...
and the new brothers that He's been adding to our CG... so happy! :D

Think some of you saw me crying yesterday during church service...
it's bcos God spoke to me a phrase that went really deep into my heart...

"You're all I need." [You = God]

Why so powerful?

'cos as some of you guys know, I'm struggling wif insecurity, and especially, I tend to be very worried abt what others think of me... and my putting on a mask before others...

All these issues, God really addressed very simply with this:
God is ALL I need. Really.

It's one thing to know it in the head, but when He speaks it into your heart - it really shatters, really pierces, really shakes, really humbles...

So that's why I was crying after service... it's like, you feel totally rotten and helpless, feel totally foolish, like a total idiot, totally ashamed... and yet, you wish this would go on; it's SO healing... and you sense His mercy and grace even deeper than you ever felt before...

Then I felt someone sit next to me and put his hand around me. I didn't open my eyes; but I really appreciated his presence... Nothing was said - just this brother's presence during this time.

Think this was God's way of showing me His love and forgiveness to me... thru this brother's presence.

Isn't it so sweet, His forgiveness?

I remember what this brother told me after tt: "Now THIS is the real spiritual Yeu Ann. Remember this experience... this is TRULY the Kingdom come."

He is all I need, He is all I need
In times of war
In times of peace
He is all I need

He is all I need, He is all I need
My heart shall say
My heart shall know
He is all I need