Wow, thank God for shepping today. :D Made a breakthrough - ran from
Bishan to Kallang... think it's about 12 km. :D Praise God! :D haha...
Really wonderful time of fellowship today. :D Had a good dinner at the
ex-Army market food court at Beach Road.
But think the most significant thing I realised today (thank God for
Peter) was this:
I had left my valuables back at E1A study room. Thank God for Jan and
Zhenzhong, they were there to jaga the place though.
But Peter heard about this and told me that I need to be careful with my
stuff. Huh... so many ppl already told me, but I felt really sian
listening - had kind of given up trying to change my absent-mindedness, my
tendency to leave my stuff around / lose them (even tho God helped me get
it back).
So Peter asked me how I felt. Told him I felt quite frustrated, and had
kind of given up - 'bo-chup' lah. But he told me that I've been like this
for a long time - that I can't accept the fact that I make mistakes (which
is a sign of pride).
He said it's really impt to change in these small things - else they grow
to become big threats later. In fact, this is part of God's will for me -
that I repent and change in these small small things... not the big
bombastic things that I like to talk about.
So have given thought to it. Next time I feel frustrated when I make a
mistake and find it hard to accept, I'll remind myself (must take every
thot captive to make them obedient to Christ) that Christ has already
accepted and forgiven me, so it's time to get up and move on!
Haha... must thank God, He reminded me of Hebrews 12:1 as I was
accompanying Peter to the MRT. "Therefore, since we are surrounded by such
a great cloud of witnesses [I'm thinking of my bros and sisters who have
pointed out to me my mistakes in love], LET US THROW OFF EVERYTHING THAT
HINDERS AND THE SIN THAT SO EASILY ENTANGLES AND LET US RUN WITH
PERSEVERANCE THE RACE MARKED OUT FOR US." Yeah! will make that my
'immediate response' verset to counter the feelings of frustration and
refusal to accept the fact that I've just made another mistake.
So gonna throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily
entangles... but what are the things that hinder?
Peter told me this: "Ah, change your attitude. God will then provide you
with the method to change."
So realised that for 7 years I've not been growing much as I could be,
because a lot of times when I make mistakes, I focus on what I should have
done (the forms), and not the ATTITUDES.
The key thing for me to throw off is the ATTITUDES that hinder - any and
every attitude that is right in His eyes. Then God will provide me with
the methods to overcome in due time, one way or another... whether thru me
or thru someone. But Jesus wants me first to change my attitude that
caused me to sin / stumble, so that every time I get up, I'll fall down
fewer and fewer times. aMeN! :D And I know He will help me get up, because
He is the AUTHOR AND PERFECTER of our faith! :D aMeN! :D
Really excited, believing God for a BREAKTHRU! :D haLLeLuJaH!
