Praying Even When You're SLEEPY

A thought about all the frustration. I was thinking regarding my prayer life. To be honest, work, having taken its load on me, is making it harder and harder for me to pray.

I've been waking up earlier... but falling back to sleep, even though I know I need to begin the day in prayer, because I just feel so tired sometimes, having tried to finish up my ministry and work the night before.

It's a cycle of frustration - a Sisyphean cycle - that accumulates every week.

So I was pausing just now, and ranting to God silently, about the idiot taxi driver... but come, who's the bigger idiot? After all Proverbs says that a man's folly ruins his life, but his heart rages against the LORD. Ok, maybe I'm not raging against God... but I realised my predilection to start blaming others for my mistakes. It's a part of my old sinful nature, and something that keeps coming back day after day, like a zombie that keeps getting up even after being headshotted for the nth time.

Then I recalled a quote by Martin Luther: "I have so many things to do today, that I simply must spend 5 hours in prayer." OMG.

And Jesus' own words: "If a man remains in me, he will bear much fruit; apart from Me you can do nothing." Amen.

Still, I was thinking about my desire for more sleep. But reminded that, say, if the circumstances are such that you really cannot get much sleep, then how? To that answer, I think God still expects us to pray. After all, Jesus asked Peter, James and John to stay watch with him in prayer on the night He was betrayed. But the three amigos, like all men do, fell asleep quickly while trying to pray. Jesus found them sleeping, probably did a facepalm, and went: "Could you men not keep watch with me for one hour? Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak."

So yes, I need to force myself to pray. Not as in compulsion, but because I know I need to, even if I am physically tired. Precisely because my flesh is weak, that why I need to pray. Martin Luther said that "the flesh is wont to grumble dreadfully." Besides... I get on average 5 or 6 hours of sleep every day... so... I have no excuse for allowing my flesh to dominate me.

Hm. Pick yourself up again, Yeu Ann. "Therefore, strengthen your feeble arms and weak knees." Pray without ceasing! Give the devil a breakfast bombardment! Give your soul a wake-up call! Some trust in Milo, some in coffee, but we trust in the name of the Lord our God.