Struggling with impatience

Hmm... recently realised that I'm really impatient... (ok, so that's an old thing...)... hmm, but tink now I realise more the extent of my impatience...

1. I'm impatient with God - how I wish He'd quickly answer my questions, solve my problems, etc. etc... that's why sometimes I find "waiting on Him" a real chore... 'cos I'm REALLY impatient for Him to answer me...
   
   like, Lord, kuai dian lah... :P
   
   Hmm... really want to thank Him for helping me realise this... 'cos frankly, all God wants of me is more of me... and that means He just simply wants to spend time with me too.
   
   (Gosh, Lord, really ah? :))
   
   But really, sometimes I rather go and do my own things... oh dear... think this must hurt Daddy a lot at times... *sigh*... Yeu Ann is willing... but very impatient... help me, Lord! You invite me to come sit on Your lap and take time to listen to You, but I wanna jump off and run off to play and do my own things... not knowing that You take delight in me...
   
   Lord, help me, I'm really childish at times, not childlike as I should be...
   
   
2. I'm also very impatient in my relationships... think I really want to see relationships grow to where I want them to be... but gosh! that's not good... I think that's being self-centred, and definitely not pleasing to You, Lord.
   
   God, I find it very hard to sit down and simply enjoy other people's presence... this is one major difficulty I have in building strong friendships.
   
   Hmm... something that two dear bros shared with me recently(both separately)... that relationships (and fellowship) take TIME.
   
   Time... haiz... how I wish that relationships, both with God and with men, would instantly grow... in the twinkle of an eye, in a flash... but that isn't the way the world was made, nor life itself works...
   
   Hmm... actually, you know what? I think one reason our relationships, as humans, with God is so unique is simply because of TIME.
   
   I mean, without Time, a relationship simply would be... different. You'd never know what it meant to be apart from God, the sadness and lostness... and you'd never be able to know the joy of redemption, forgiveness... and you'd never be able to know the delight, the surprise of knowing something about the other person that you NEVER knew before...
   

YA