Sunday, March 16, 2008

Come to the Dark Side



"Bet you didn't know the Sith Lords were a veritable cadre of Iron Chefs in the kitchen. By harnessing the power of the Dark Side, they've made these cookies well-nigh irresistible. Can't you almost smell the scent of fresh-baked cookies, wafting through the airlock...."

Just a Journal Entry for Today


A Tale of Two Lovers :)

Just want to write a little post here to thank God for today... =) Actually, it's extremely long and rambling... just an raw memory dump of today. To preserve these memories of God's lovingkindness... =D

With that prologue, here goes...


The First Hour
For the House of Prayer session today. For the thanksgiving prayers that we prayed, thanksgiving for yesterday's miraculous provision of good weather during the event, and that the event itself went so nicely, great and cheerful atmosphere... thank God He really is in charge!

As Peter observed, "I saw the clouds moving parallel to the park, but not around it."

And my own observation of how as some of us went to Zhenzhong's car, the first raindrops hit us just as we opened the doors...

Wow! :D So thankful to God for Ps Jo's sermon on which he exhorted us to speak to things with faith in Jesus' name - like how Jesus Himself spoke to the raging storm like one correcting an unruly child... "QUIET! BE STILL!" And instantly the storm died down.

I have observed with my own eyes that every single time I put up my hand to the clouds and pray in Jesus' name, commanding the clouds not to disturb us until the entire event is over... the clouds did exactly as we prayed! It really is so wonderful to see how something so uncontrollable as the weather will quietly and humbly submit itself to the authority of Jesus' name! Oh man, we truly serve a Great and Awesome God!
John 14:12-14
12I tell you the truth, anyone who has faith in me will do what I have been doing. He will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father. 13And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Son may bring glory to the Father. 14You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it.


Not that we can change the weather as and when we like... or treat Jesus as a divine vending machine. The necessary precondition is that we pray according to God's will, e.g. these events are useful to help share the gospel with others, or we really need good weather... etc.

The IVP New Testament Commentaries explain these verses:
Jesus assures them that I will do whatever you ask in my name (v. 13), a theme that will be repeated throughout the farewell discourse (15:7, 16; 16:23-24, 26; cf. 1 Jn 3:22; 5:14-15). Praying "in Jesus' name" does not refer to some magic formula added to the end of a prayer. It means to pray in keeping with his character and concerns and, indeed, in union with him. The disciples, through their union with Christ, are taken up into his agenda. This agenda, as throughout his ministry, is to bring glory to the Father (v. 13). This verse has been understood by some Christians to be a blanket promise that Jesus will give them whatever they want. Such idolatry of the self is the very opposite of eternal life. "Whatsoever we ask that is adverse to the interests of salvation, we do not ask in the name of the Savior" (Augustine In John 73.3). Rather, the promise is made to those who will pray in Jesus' name and for the glory of the Father. As such it is a great promise for the advance of God's purposes in oneself, in the church and in the world.


Oh! That was just the first hour of the day. I talk so long. :P

The Second Hour
Then, after HOP, had a great breakfast at Burger King with Peter and Sharon. We had a really good time of fellowship together, and wow, thank God for Peter's wise sharing to us about some things... and one thing that Sharon shared with us from the book, "Purpose Driven Life", was that all of life is ultimately about relationships. Even The Ten Commandments are about our relationships - relationships with God and with people. Four commandments for our relationship with God, and six commandments for our relationships with people.

And the book said that if relationships really matter to us, we will not fit them into our schedules. We will make them our priorities.

We so often speak about "making time" for people. But one of the most precious things in life that we can ever give people is our time, because once given, we can't take it back again. The fact is, we've given a part of our lives to others thus. So since ultimately the purpose of life is relationships, we need to work on our relationships. To purposely prioritize building relationships.

It applies even to our ordinary jobs. I think I heard somewhere in one sermon that the main reason people hate their jobs is because they can't get along with their colleagues. And as Ecclesiastes 4 put it so aptly:
Ecc 4:7-10:
Again I saw something meaningless under the sun:

There was a man all alone;
he had neither son nor brother.
There was no end to his toil,
yet his eyes were not content with his wealth.
"For whom am I toiling," he asked,
"and why am I depriving myself of enjoyment?"
This too is meaningless—
a miserable business!

Two are better than one,
because they have a good return for their work:

If one falls down,
his friend can help him up.
But pity the man who falls
and has no one to help him up!


(On a side note, I really want to thank God for my dear colleagues in my team. Each one of them is really a blessing to me, and I know that God put me in this team to teach me from their lives. As one of my superiors commented, this is one of the best teams he's seen so far. Whoa. Really thankful to God for His absolute grace to me...

So have been making it a point to pray for my teammates, asking God to bless them, for His peace to be upon the office where I work, for God to meet their daily needs and to bless them, and that He will help me grow to be a better blessing to them, to open my eyes wide-wide to see what needs of theirs I can help to meet where possible. Every day is really a learning experience for me, not only in terms of work or development skills, but also of growing in character and personal maturity. It's strange, but somehow God has been sheltering me, protecting me... it's really funny how all my life, I've been protected, but not too protected... but pushed just enough... and there are so many people out there who have to endure (literally) God-knows-what.

And God has given so much to me in this little life of mine. How can I ever give back to Him? And I think His answer is very simple: Lovest thou Me? Then feed my sheep; take care of my lambs. For whether we know Jesus or not, we all, like sheep, have gone astray, each of us has turned to his own way...)

Oh! That was the second hour.

The Third and Fourth Hours
The sermon spoke to me deeply. The worship, the testimony, everything. Thank God for the wonderful ministers who administer God's grace to us via music or songleading or even songwriting (as in sister Jaclyn's song that she wrote). Though I experience God much more strongly through nature than through worship, the songs blessed me very much. =D So thankful to God for these beautiful hymns of the faith.

Oh! back to the sermon. And the sermon was on the true joy that Jesus alone can give. It was a familiar theme... but one of the points struck home deeply. Ps Jeff shared a real-life story about how he recently tried to counsel someone with slight depression, together with a professional counsellor. After a long and fruitless time of counselling, the counsellor at the end of the session simply asked the person:

- Do you really want to get well?

- Uh... yes, I really do.

- Then I want you to do this one thing after this session is over. As soon as possible, you go find someone with a greater need than yours, and go and help that person. Go do something for that person. And you'll find your depression will go away.


And at that moment, Wenjiang's wise words came back to me again, after so many years ago: "Go, Yeu Ann. Go and encourage your brothers. Call them. Show care and concern to them. 'He who refreshes others will himself be refreshed.'"

It struck home to me, because by nature I'm naturally a self-centred and inwards looking person. But I recall the times that God enabled me to really breakthrough in my emotional downtimes were the times I made a decision to step out of myself and go meet the needs of others. And as I did so, I started experiencing so many blessings... :D Thank God for His lovingkindness indeed! It's a daily battle to crucify my old sinful, selfish, self-centred nature... but truly, it really is more blessed to give than to receive! Amen!

And the testimony almost brought tears to my eyes. The dear brother who shared his testimony about how God slowly but faithfully brought him out of a time of deep depression... it was so sincere, so heartfelt, so real, that I almost wanted to cry. And I do believe that testimony was powerfully used by God to plant many seeds today in many hearts.

:)

Thank You Lord. You really transform lives very much, Jesus!

The Fifth and Sixth Hours
Such a good lunch... thank God also for the refreshing time with Dehua, who joined our CG for lunch. And Sharon and Jeannie later on shared more with Liwen. Shawn and I went off somewhere to pray together in secret for them. It's really exciting, to see what the Lord can do in answer to our prayers! :D

Also had a short but sweet time of catching up with Weizhu and Huichun. Thank God for this lovely couple in Christ =) And oh yes, I finally figured out why Huaqiang was wearing such a strange-looking Tshirt today with only the letters "VE" on it... Sarah was wearing the same kind of Tshirt with only the letters "LO"...

So see photo above of the two lovers. =) Tickles my inner romantic. ;)

The Seventh, Eight and Ninth Hours
DOTA session with the bros. =) First time getting a mega-kill. Whee... thanks once again Master Edwin for the tips... ;) but thinking again, wow... playing DOTA does train me in situational awareness and anticipating logically what to do next... especially when given unclear instructions or miscommunication. Like KC telling me to attack the Sand King... but I saw the Skeleton "King" in a far-off lane... so was confused which one he meant. So just cheonged... and got hammered, walloped and pwned by the wrong SK. KC was quite... you get the idea. But thanks KC for taking the time later to clarify what you really meant. And he told me to clarify first if I'm not sure of the instructions. So must learn from this experience -> apply the principles to other aspects of life, especially work and ministry.

Yeah! Thank God for DOTA... especially for the brothers who bear patiently with noobs like me... and Ed and KC "discipling" me in the way of the Tinker. :) Makes me a better Thinker (pun intended lol).

And, The Last Hour of Today
Ah. Now back home. Going to scribble down the fresh (and more substantial idea) for the script that I came up with for the HopeKids video. It's terribly exciting... and delightful to work for the Lord. =)

Psalm 118:24,29 (NLT)
24 This is the day the Lord has made.
We will rejoice and be glad in it.

Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good!
His faithful love endures forever.

Friday, March 14, 2008

Rambling Thoughts! (on character etc.)

Read Andrew's latest blog post about helping out in the grassroots. Whoa, very pleasantly surprised! And it made me think about what I can do to bless my community, to bless those around me.

Like how David Marshall made a difference in his community. I was touched to read in the ST about how there was a tribute to Marshall even after he died some time ago... pleasantly surprised to see how the PAP leaders affirmed his contributions to Singapore, even though Marshall was an opposition leader before, and his weaknesses as Chief Minister of Singapore, both administratively and politically.

So was wondering why, then, is this man still so highly regarded? Was thinking, a lot of it is due to his character, that makes him so affable and beloved by many people. One anecdote about him said that he would welcome visitors to his place readily, with such a strong and eager sense of hospitality...

And also another bit I read about him was his passionate conviction for social justice, and his humility too. His heart for people too. And I read also how, he refused to take part in a proposed plot by then-Chief Minister Lim Yew Hock to arrest Lee Kuan Yew and his friends so that the two of them could stay in power. His words were something like this: "NO, NO, NO AND NEVER! Have you forgotten what we stand for? For freedom and justice!"

Whoa. No wonder even his political opponents respected and even loved him.

On another note, I read about the fall of (ex)-New York Governor Eliot Spitzer, and how his overweening pride was a major cause of his fall - how people were rejoicing over his fall from grace. He said words to his opponents like, "I'm a f****** steamroller, and I'm going to roll over you."

Compare to his new successor, David Patterson. In The New Face of New York, the writer reports:
Few of Eliot Spitzer's peers will miss his style now that he has been felled by scandal. Disdain for the governor's bellicosity was the one thing that united both parties in New York's fractious state government. His successor is Lt. Governor David Paterson — Spitzer's diametric opposite. With his mellow voice, humor and self-deprecation, Paterson has become a popular speaker in New York's political circles. "He has a winning personality," says State Senator Bill Perkins, a Democrat whose 30th District seat Paterson used to occupy. "He's very funny, very witty, and he makes an effort to not just get the job done but to make people comfortable."


Thoughts to ponder... yah, character is so important. And thank God for my dad who taught me that I may not be able to control my circumstances, but I can choose how to respond to my circumstances.

More thoughts. Yah, humility... character is so important. But not self-righteous morality... but genuine love for God and for people. That is what really counts in this life. And I know that's the greatest meaning of life: To love God and love my neighbour as myself. Nothing greater than this.

Also thinking about my workplace. Was praying how can I be a blessing to those around me? Think the Lord impressed on me that I have to learn to open my eyes and see the needs of those around me. What needs? Small needs here and there... anticipating their needs, not just waiting to be asked. And that is one way their hearts will be opened up more.

And now I understand more and more clearly why He put me in this particular CG... it's because half of the people there, their love language is service. To them, seeing little acts of kindnesses are especially valuable in their eyes. And one of my weakest areas is seeing the needs of others... and the fact that I'd rather say words than to do acts of service. But Lord, please humble me and show me how to love not with words or tongue, but in action and truth.

And I really do want to love people more and more. And I know that as I pray to God, who is love, He'll pour out His love into my heart, and teach me to learn to see the dirty feet of others and kneel down to wash them. This is really what I want to be - to kneel down together with my Lord and Teacher, and to wash the feet of others. Lord, help me learn to empty myself, to learn to make myself nothing, just as You made Yourself nothing, taking on the very nature of a servant.

This is our God, the Servant King
He calls us now to come follow Him
To bring our lives as a daily offering
Of worship to the Servant King...

Thursday, March 13, 2008

The African Hacker


With home-brewed code and a little help from Microsoft, a programmer in Ghana launches Africa's first software empire. [read more]

It's so cool to see how in the face of various obstacles in Ghana e.g. unreliable power supplies, outdated computers, poorly educated users and rampant piracy, this entrepreneur and his team have ingeniously written software that is, in their words, "tropically tolerant". Culturally relevant techniques that successfully adapt their way around these tricky social tangles. :)

Saturday, March 8, 2008

Of Differences and Season of War

Met up a dear bro today...

Something that he encouraged me very much was that it's true, I'm different from a lot of people, but some of my differences are very good and powerful.

Wow. It left a lump in my throat when he said that.

And we had a good time sharing about our lives. He shared from 2 Samuel about the verse, about spring being the time kings go to war. And how this time for him was a time of "war", in the sense that it's time for him to build himself up, work hard in his career and ministry, and so on. Abt how the "season of love" has passed after February... and also about why he chose to join the Men's Ministry. "It's a movement."

It was a genuine time of fellowship. :D really thank God for answering my prayer, that both of us'd leave mutually blessed and renewed - and it really turned out that way! :D

Facing The Giants

Going to meet Yanjie soon. But thought before that, I'd jot down some quotes from the "Facing the Giants" movie that we watched yesterday.

Here's the synopsis from Wikipedia:
Coach Grant Taylor at Shiloh Christian Academy has never had a winning football season. His car breaks down frequently, his house is falling down around him, and he and his wife are unable to have children. When he overhears school parents plotting to have him fired, he reaches a crisis point and prays. The turning point for Coach Taylor is shortly after an intensive time of prayer. An older man who walks the halls of the school praying for the students shows up unexpectedly in the coach's office with a message of encouragement. The timing of that message overcomes the Coach's reluctance to change focus.


The defining scene in the show was when, in the midst of training, Coach Grant decided to challenge the team captain, who at that time was, despite his natural leadership qualities, quite apathetic and passive. He challenged the young man to crawl across the entire football field with a quarterback on his back - blindfolded.

Here's how the challenge went.


Do watch it - it is one of the most moving movie scenes I've seen in a very long time.

Why Do Children's Ministry?

The World Congress on how not to mess up the Great Commission too much:
  • Aim Lower,
  • Think Smaller,
  • Give Up,
  • and go have a cup of coffee.


How coincidental... I was discussing with Joyce on MSN just now what workshops to go for the GoForth missions conference in July... And they have a few workshops on reaching out to children. Did you know that, according to the video below, 60%-80% of all responses to the Gospel are made by children? And that as the world population grows to 6,000,000 people, children are one of the largest pools of workers in the harvest field - if we can reach them before the world or Satan does.

So, for all who have a heart for missions, this is one video you die-die must watch!


Thank God for this video... found it from one of Hong Teck's websites. Really, if you just want to join children's ministry because you find them cute, then my dear friend, you are missing out on a HUGE potential to extend the Kingdom. They can be the best instruments to share the gospel with their own parents - we have our own examples here in our own church too.

So never, never, never, never, never, never, never dare ever look down on the little ones, and never ever hinder them from receiving the fullness of God's grace! For the Kingdom of God belongs to such as these! In fact, whoever won't receive the Kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it. Not I say one... the Lord Jesus Himself said it - and very plainly! Amen!

Don't be contented with impacting this generation... impact the next generation too, for they will be the ones who will take our place in impacting yet-unborn generations for the Lord!
Psalm 22:30-31
Posterity will serve Him;
future generations will be told about the Lord.

They will proclaim his righteousness
to a people yet unborn—
for He has done it.


Errata:
Sallah! I wrote 6,000,000 people... it's meant to be 6,000,000,000 people... Paiseh. I just accidentally wiped 5,994,000,000 people off the planet. :P

Friday, March 7, 2008

Updates

Heard from Jitsy recently that she's been doing some sort of social project in Shanghai with migrant children besides her already busy workload as an intern... wow, very inspiring! :D Thank God for her wonderful heart that really desires to touch the lives of others.

On the home front here, so far no trace of Mr Missing aka Mas Selamat. Later going to watch "Never Say Die", some inspirational Christian movie at Nexus later. Tai Heng's coming! :)

HopeKids video production - got a promising storyline up. Planning to meet the rest of the team on Sunday for a quick 20 min or so. Thank God for the willing hearts of all who joined the team. :D Your reward is in heaven!

Soccer match on Sunday.

Errata:
Oops. Wrong title of the movie. "Facing The Giants," it was. And whoa, it's really a very inspirational movie. :D Thank God truly... I was saying to myself, "One day, I shall make a movie like that too." With God, all things are possible!

UN warns on food price inflation


The head of the UN World Food Programme has warned that the rise in basic food costs could continue until 2010. [read more...]

As I read about all these food inflations, I see a trend... and I'm reminded that Jesus said that these are how the world is going to be like at the last of the last days. And in Revelation 6, the Bible says this of God's judgement on the earth:
5 When the Lamb broke the third seal, I heard the third living being say, “Come!” I looked up and saw a black horse, and its rider was holding a pair of scales in his hand. 6 And I heard a voice from among the four living beings say, “A loaf of wheat bread or three loaves of barley will cost a day’s pay. And don’t waste the olive oil and wine.”


Perhaps the Bible verse above is meant to be literal or figurative or allegorical, or all of them, and then some more... but whatever the above verse means, it does seem to me that Jesus is going to come back very soon!

I don't want to be caught unprepared. Let's help one another be ready for the Lord's return! And if you haven't received Christ into your heart yet, you can find out more here. Feel free to post any questions here on this blog!

Combined CG

Just came back from Combined CG of all the CGs in the NG district. To say it was a CG is an understatement. There were at least a hundred people flocking into Nexus... Ps Jeff met all of us to share about Dynamics of a Life-Transforming Community.
  1. Jesus Is In The Centre of His Community
  2. Jesus' Community Prevents Spiritual Drift
  3. Jesus' Community Allows Us To Be Real

Wow. V timely, 'cos was fasting and praying for my CG and for our friends who are coming for tomorrow's movie event at Nexus.

And also the prophecy during the worship - I still have a lovely lingering memory of that time of worship - how lovely, how wonderful it is to worship God! :)

The prophecy from 2 Chronicles... to humble ourselves and pray to Him, then will He hear from heaven and heal our land... that God was encouraging us who have a burden for some people who are not meeting up regularly for fellowship, to keep seeking Him in prayer... to grow in a bigger heart of compassion for them, that we may pray even more.

And Isaiah 42:9! :D
See, the former things have taken place,
and new things I declare;
before they spring into being
I announce them to you."

The prophecy, that God is telling us that there is going to be a new era for our region. And He is inviting us to seek His face, to seek Him for the announcement of new things yet to come, that He will declare in advance to us!

It really is very exciting! :D

And thank God also for HQ's sharing with me. I learnt from his brotherly advice - and after some thinking and further asking, I learnt that observing alone isn't enough - in order to make sense of all the incoming "data"...

E.g. if I observe someone isn't looking very happy, I can do a mental "checklist" to ask myself what's the possible reason that he/she isn't looking very happy. If after exhausting the "checklist" systematically, having thought through, then perhaps if the situation and timing is right, I can ask the person how he/she is feeling.

It was a really helpful piece of advice to me, because when I do observe, I look with my eyes, but can't immediately understand what exactly is happening. So I tend to ask others around me what's going on. Honest - that's how my mind really works. For me, I have to burn a lot of energy to keep my eyes deliberately focused and my ears to listen... it IS very physically and mentally tiring. LOL. So I don't particularly enjoy large gatherings... noisy situations literally make me feel lost and confused a lot.

A very interesting analogy that HQ used was this: when you do a technical troubleshooting problem, you systematically plow through a checklist of potential issues. Likewise, you do the same when you observe external situations... be it social or administrative or whatever else. Or solving problems on the spot. It'll help me rely less on others in coming up with solutions, thus training me to be more independent. Not that I must, but that it'll help me be more effective for God and for myself and others when I learn to think on my own feet.

And also, his advice helped me realize one thing: no wonder I struggle with debugging! Because I don't use a checklist to help me troubleshoot systematically.

I often come up with very imaginative reasons for the bug:
"Hmm... I suspect... it's a non-deterministic memory synchronization timing issue."
"Aww. The underlying software framework must have a problem. So not my program."
"Duh! It's the compiler itself!"
"That's not a bug - it's a feature!"
"Hardware fault? Maybe the hamster inside died..."


And it is important, especially now that I'm in the wide, wide world of working adults. And in the Adults ministry, realistically speaking, the men, more often than not, are expected to be more stable, more problem-solving than the women. Women are given more freeway to be emotional, etc... but if you're a guy... even if you are the emotional type, it's just not the best that a guy can be.

Looking, hoping and praying for new growth in this area of my life for Christ... growth in maturity, especially as a growing man of God! Amen! :D

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Zambia miners 'see little reward'

Thomas Mumba loved to sing in the church choir and dreamt of recording a CD of gospel music.

At 23 he did not drink or smoke. He preferred to spend his time worshipping his Lord.

His mother Justina hoped his future would be far from the mines that pockmark the landscape of Zambia's Copperbelt.

"I wanted him to become a pastor, or a reverend," she said, "because of his good morals. People loved him very much."

Instead, Thomas lies buried near the gates of Chambishi mine, which is run by NFC Africa Mining, a Chinese state enterprise. [read more...]

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

Training for Maturity, Training for Godliness

I went jogging just now, and wow, thank God, I really enjoy the experience. :D Haha... but more importantly, God was with me through the time of jogging. Learnt some valuable lessons on training for maturity and godliness from jogging.

First thing I realised: There is always pain in growth and in bearing fruit. Like how the seed must first die before it can become many seeds, and like how a woman has to go through the pains of labour before her child is born... so it is with any aspect of our lives. First the suffering, then the glory. "Did not the Christ have to suffer these things and then enter his glory?" Like the pains of hormonal adolescence, the pains of labour... so it is with my growth in maturity. I need to experience the good pain that comes from labouring to grow in godliness and in denying myself, just like an athlete training for the Olympics undergoes the pain of denying himself/herself chocolates, etc.

It strikes me as true, because I'm someone who has this mindset that I should be protected, kept safe... not to experience pain or discomfort unless necessary. But after talking with HQ on Sunday, I realised this character aspect of myself. So unwilling to die to self - that is why I have taken so long to grow!

So there is pain in the growth, in the maturing process... but there IS joy in the pain, because one is able to recognize it as good pain, or on a grander scale, redemptive suffering. Like how one can be glad when he jogs till he's almost ready to meet Jesus face to face (probably with a blue gasping face). :P

Then second thing that came out of this jogging experience was a fruitful time of meditation of this verse from 1 Timothy 4:7b-9:
"Instead, train yourself to be godly. 'Physical training is good, but training for godliness is much better, promising benefits in this life and in the life to come.' This is a trustworthy saying, and everyone should accept it.


The jogging training helped me understand better what it means to train myself to be godly. The nature of training is that it requires:

- consistency. regular work is needed.

- training myself requires that I train myself. At first glance, sounds tautological, but realised it makes a lot of sense. If we want to train others, we need to train ourselves first. Makes sense... I can't ask someone else to do my jogging for me. Or delegate my DOTA training... :P

- training takes place on different types of terrain. Like how jogging on the pavement, jogging on the fields, jogging up over overheads, and jogging across the road... likewise, in our spiritual training, we need to train in different circumstances. if we train only in comfortable situations... the moment difficulties come, we'll be totally lost. we learn to be godly in church, at home, in the marketplace, in our free time, with our finances, with our relationships... all different types of terrain.

- training has to fit with your current level and condition. you can't expect a 3-years old to do marathons, and neither can you expect a person who has just recovered from a broken leg to start doing 100m dashes. or a weak heart, going for an ultra-marathon... it's just impossible. Having realistic, humble understanding of where I really stand...

- but training requires that you strengthen first what needs to be strengthened. if the guy's just broken his leg, he needs to stretch his weakened leg to strengthen the muscles... if you're exercising to strengthen a weak heart, then jogging or swimming would be better than weightlifting...

likewise, if i struggle to grow in emotional maturity, then reading books on the appropriate topics. if i need to grow in depth of thinking, then read deep books, and practise thinking more deeply and wisely...

- training is NEVER instant. it needs time. but the main thing is progress. just go one mile more... that's progress for the day.

- and just as importantly too, training helps us become more aware of what we lack. it helps us know where we really stand. if we think we can run a marathon in 4 hours, a quick run around the block will tell us the brutal truth. :)

think this is something i personally realised as i've walked with Jesus more and more these ten years. am realizing now just how short i fall of His perfect standard for my life... in fact, it seems to me that whenever i overcome or grow in one area of my life, i discover the bar suddenly gets higher! and the Holy Spirit opens my eyes just a little more to see just how much more is still left for me to grow!

it's like... you just finished crossing the highest mountains ever known to mankind. and it took you a few dozen years. then... when you crane your neck over the peak, expecting to see the glorious plains that lie ahead... you see a range of even higher mountain peaks in the distance.

but that's the infinite beauty of God's perfection... and the deepening epiphany of the depths of God's grace to you and me. we thought our sins were like buckets of water... we saw they were actually oceans of blood.

but then that is how we really take one little step closer to just comprehending the utter depths of God's love and humility - the Incarnation, O a mystery unthinkable - that He would take the Fall, just to save our souls - and now to love Him is all, that we can ever know.

:'D

- training really brings benefit. especially training in godliness. It really brings so much benefits, not only as rewards for the life to come, but the life here now too. A godly man will enjoy a good reputation with his fellowmen, and be close in his relationship with God and relationships with people... he'll have much wisdom and whatever he does will prosper, because God is with him. And he'll leave behind a rich legacy, better than all the riches of the world, for those around him...

:D

Shall end off here with this passage from 1 Timothy 4 (MSG):
11-14Get the word out. Teach all these things. And don't let anyone put you down because you're young. Teach believers with your life: by word, by demeanor, by love, by faith, by integrity. Stay at your post reading Scripture, giving counsel, teaching. And that special gift of ministry you were given when the leaders of the church laid hands on you and prayed—keep that dusted off and in use.

15-16Cultivate these things. Immerse yourself in them. The people will all see you mature right before their eyes! Keep a firm grasp on both your character and your teaching. Don't be diverted. Just keep at it. Both you and those who hear you will experience salvation.

My Sharing on a Life Lesson

Last Saturday, I was invited to meet a bunch of secondary kids. These great kids were actually on some character-building programme as they were deemed problematic by their teachers.

After being through a similar growing up experience with these kids, I dare say that the problem doesn’t lie in the kids. The real problem is the adults or the people who are in authority.

Not only do they not take the time to listen and understand these kids, they are haste in their judgement to label these kids who do not seem to “flow” with the mainstream as problematic.


Being misunderstood and condemned, naturally these kids would rebel or show dis-interest in their studies... [read more]


Truthful, touching and thought-provoking. :)

Escaped Terrorist Spotter!



Velly useful leh...

Sunday, March 2, 2008

Character, The Magic Word



Read this TIME magazine article just now, "Does Experience Matter in a President?". And this passage caught my eye:
"Wouldn't it be nice if time on the job and tickets punched translated neatly into superior performance? Then finding great Presidents would be a simple matter of weighing résumés. Take a Democrat like Bill Richardson — experienced in Congress, in the Cabinet, as a diplomat and governor — and have him run against Republican Tom Ridge, a former soldier, governor and Director of Homeland Security, with the winner chosen by a blue-ribbon commission of all-purpose elders. The Danforth-Mitchell commission, perhaps, or O'Connor-Albright. But it has never worked that way, which is why Lincoln's statue occupies a marble temple on the Mall in Washington, while his far more experienced rival William Seward has a little seat on a pedestal in New York City. "Experience never exists in isolation; it is always a factor that coexists with temperament, training, background, spiritual outlook and a host of other factors," says presidential historian Richard Norton Smith. "Character is your magic word, it seems to me — not just what they've done but how they've done it and what they've learned from doing it."

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Was it Franklin Roosevelt's experience as governor of New York that gave him the power to inspire in some of the nation's darkest hours? Or was that gift a distillate of his dauntless battle with polio? To a keen student of human nature, all of life offers lessons in how to lead, inspire and endure. Lincoln's ability to apply useful lessons from his motley experiences was among his most striking traits. When Ulysses Grant explained his grand strategy to defeat Lee by attacking on multiple fronts, Lincoln immediately thought of a lesson in joint operations learned years earlier on the farm. "Those not skinning can hold a leg," he said approvingly. For other temperaments, no amount of schooling, no matter how specific, will do. Richard Nixon served as a Congressman, Senator and Vice President; he watched from the front row as Eisenhower assembled one of the best-organized administrations in history. When Nixon's turn came, though, his core character — insecure, insincere, conspiratorial — led him to create a White House doomed by its own dysfunction.

Experience, in other words, gets its value from the person who has it. In certain lives, a little goes a long way. Some people grow and ripen through years of government service; others spoil on the vine. At the same time, the value that voters place on résumé is constantly shifting. James A. Baker III is an authority on this. In 1980, he managed the campaign of his well-credentialed friend George H.W. Bush, under the slogan "A President we won't have to train." But the public mood was sour on Washington, and victory went to an outsider, Ronald Reagan, who had never served in Washington. Eight years later, the mood was stay the course, and Bush's experience as Vice President was his ticket to victory. Then the atmosphere turned again, and in 1992 the public demanded someone new. Baker, a former Secretary of State, still believes that a candidate with credentials should certainly tout them, but in the end, "there's no such thing as presidential experience outside of the office itself." The quality we ought to seek "is leadership."


Wow. Thank God. It's very very timely. I was talking with HQ today, and something that he said struck me. It's not about a popularity contest, but one of character, of maturity.

Character is integral to influencing people - especially some people who don't believe in words. They are only influenced when they see action. To be consistent with what you say. Whether I walk the talk.

Ah. Hong Teck told me before - children don't listen to what you say. But they will listen to what you do.

Ah! There's this brother, whom I'm thinking of building a closer friendship with. I find him a brother who holds firmly to his principles and convictions, which I find very noble and admirable - strong words, yes, and it's true. And his shepherd has also confirmed that while we were talking about him. Think I do want to get to know this brother better - I find him a humble bro as well, and feel very blessed to have him as a friend too. =) Hope and pray I can get to learn more from this brother's life... and that God'll bring the two of us together as close friends in Christ. =)

I must confess: The road to building character really feels very very long - and it's upwards some more. To be honest, if you see me at home, you'll know that I can be very impatient and selfish, constantly struggling to help my parents with chores or errands... especially when my parents ask me for help with IT stuff. I struggle with giving up my personal space and own time, especially if they call upon me when I'm blogging (like now).

So many things to think about. I don't want to live an empty, hollow, tombish life - looking good on the outside, but rotten on the inside.

I like how the apostle Paul puts it in Philippians 3:12-14 this way: "I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus."

A prize! A goal! ... do I realise that in the quest to be like Christ, even in the humble and noble attitude of self-surrender and sacrifice for others' sake... there is a goal at the finishing end, a wonderful prize, an eternal crown of glory waiting for me? For you? For you and me? :D

Hmm. I was thinking too. To be honest, I thought before, if I'm making the decision to do something good even though I damned well don't feel like doing it, am I being hypocritical? Is this about being real in sharing my emotions or being good?

Or, can the two be reconciled?

Actually, it's two different things. One can feel emotionally hurt, but make a decision to obey the Bible, the truth, anyway and to bend the knee of one's will to the truth. "Father, if it is possible, take this cup [of suffering] away from me. Yet not My will, but Yours be done." To show others what it means to live by the truth. And the motives behind the deed. God looks at my inside. It's whether when nobody sees, am I still living out what I proclaim?

And that's why the Lord values genuineness of heart so much. And why His harshest rebukes were reserved for people who focus on forms, but not the heart. "You should have practiced the latter without neglecting the former." Outside and inside. Body and spirit. Both matters equally to Him, but He looks especially at the inside.

Let my walk speak loud
And my words be true
Let my life be whole
With my eyes set upon You

Lord I'm stepping out
Of my comfort zone
Letting go of me
Holding on to You...

The Church and The Marketplace

I just read this article, after HQ showed the rest of the CG this article... it's really very spurring!

Something I felt lifted up when I read this article was this:
The Church cannot forfeit her rightful place and role in the marketplace where she must be able to extend her influence beyond the walls of the church or it will be seen as irrelevant.

For too long the Church has been confined and conforming to the world, it is time that the Church demonstrates the power and presence of God in engaging and transforming the world. If this isolation continues, the Church will eventually lose her God-given authority and inheritence as the head and not the tail.


I was thinking: What exactly does it mean by influence?

One of my good friends shared with me recently that the boss of his company had asked another manager to push his team to an impossible deadline. My friend was shocked when he heard the deadline - it was absolutely impossible. But the other manager simply said, "Ok, no problem."

Something that touched me when my friend narrated that incident to me was his shock and dismay at the boss' impossible demands and the unfair treatment of the overworked team - that "this is economic slavery!" I was touched, because to be honest, I most likely would have thought, "Erm, as long as I'm not affected by the demands, it's not my problem..."

But my friend's heart for his fellow overworked colleagues spoke to me a lot - that this is one Christian who doesn't just look only to his own interests, but cares for the welfare of others.

That is the same heartbeat that stirred the hearts of a few Christians a few centuries ago in England and the USA, to make a decision to stand against slavery then. So thank God for my friend who wants to make an impact in the marketplace - to in future be able to establish fair working conditions for the people under his care next time.

So moral influence. That's how the Church can really be salt and light in the marketplace - even if you don't have the skills to be the next Elim Chew or Bill Gates... ultimately, it is your character, your attitude, your care and concern for those around you that will make a lasting impact on those around you. A refusal to compromise on the truth, even if it means losing a job. A determination to keep my promise to deliver the goods, no matter how painful. A heart for the needs of others. A willingness to go the extra mile, even if it costs you extra.

Then that day in heaven, you'll see with your own eyes, as the song "Thank You for Giving to the Lord" goes:
One by one they came, far as your eyes could see.
Each life somehow touched by your generosity.
Little things that you had done, sacrifices that you made,
They were unnoticed on this earth
In Heaven now proclaimed.

Friday, February 29, 2008

TED 2008: How Good People Turn Evil, From Stanford to Abu Ghraib

A thought-provoking interview.

MONTEREY, California -- Psychologist Philip Zimbardo has seen good people turn evil, and he thinks he knows why.

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He spoke with Wired.com about what Abu Ghraib and his prison study can teach us about evil and why heroes are, by nature, social deviants.

Wired: Your work suggests that we all have the capacity for evil, and that it's simply environmental influences that tip the balance from good to bad. Doesn't that absolve people from taking responsibility for their choices?

Philip Zimbardo: No. People are always personally accountable for their behavior. If they kill, they are accountable. However, what I'm saying is that if the killing can be shown to be a product of the influence of a powerful situation within a powerful system, then it's as if they are experiencing diminished capacity and have lost their free will or their full reasoning capacity.

Situations can be sufficiently powerful to undercut empathy, altruism, morality and to get ordinary people, even good people, to be seduced into doing really bad things -- but only in that situation.

Understanding the reason for someone's behavior is not the same as excusing it. Understanding why somebody did something -- where that why has to do with situational influences -- leads to a totally different way of dealing with evil. It leads to developing prevention strategies to change those evil-generating situations, rather than the current strategy, which is to change the person.

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Wired: You've said that the way to prevent evil actions is to teach the "banality of kindness" -- that is, to get society to exemplify ordinary people who engage in extraordinary moral actions. How do you do this?

Zimbardo: If you can agree on a certain number of things that are morally wrong, then one way to counteract them is by training kids. There are some programs, starting in the fifth grade, which get kids to think about the heroic mentality, the heroic imagination.

To be a hero you have to take action on behalf of someone else or some principle and you have to be deviant in your society, because the group is always saying don't do it; don't step out of line. If you're an accountant at Arthur Andersen, everyone who is doing the defrauding is telling you, "Hey, be one of the team."

Heroes have to always, at the heroic decisive moment, break from the crowd and do something different. But a heroic act involves a risk. If you're a whistle-blower you're going to get fired, you're not going to get promoted, you're going to get ostracized. And you have to say it doesn't matter.

Most heroes are more effective when they're social heroes rather than isolated heroes. A single person or even two can get dismissed by the system. But once you have three people, then it's the start of an opposition.

So what I'm trying to promote is not only the importance of each individual thinking "I'm a hero" and waiting for the right situation to come along in which I will act on behalf of some people or some principle, but also, "I'm going to learn the skills to influence other people to join me in that heroic action."


Just was so reminded of Psalm 1 and Proverbs, where it talks about training a child in the way he/she should go. And also Ecclesiastes that says, "Two are better than one... a cord of three strands is not easily broken." :D

And that's why I really believe in the importance and the value and potential in children's ministry. Because we don't just want to teach children to do good. We want to disciple them to BE good, to walk daily in the Word of God. So that they will rise up to be strong men and women of God who will take a stand together. That they will not be influenced by evil, but instead, to influence others to take a stand for God and the truth. So they may not lose their saltiness or hide their light for the Lord.

In short, men and women of God with real substance and strength of character for the last days who are willing to pay the full cost of discipleship. Not "tofu" Christians.

Thursday, February 28, 2008

Why TV Sucks



Interesting reference to "Flowers for Algernon"... note the handwriting!

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Isaiah 40:10-11
See, the Sovereign LORD comes with power,
and his arm rules for him.
See, his reward is with him,
and his recompense accompanies him.

He tends his flock like a shepherd:
He gathers the lambs in his arms
and carries them close to his heart;
he gently leads those that have young.



*pause* It's incredibly so touching. To feel a Mighty God marching down mountains of majesty, the ground resonating with every booming step of His. And hear the thunders rumble in fear, as the lighting genuflect at His feet. See the mountains throb with glee, spurting fire onto sky and sea. Smell the sweat of the seven seas as they twist, turn and flee - all before the coming of He.

And in the midst of all this trembling, groaning and quivering of creation itself... He sees a tiny trembling lamb in the middle of the valleys. And He stoops down to pick up this frail lamb, and He holds it close to His own heart.

Wow. With such a God like Him... =) how can you not love Him?

Everything That Has Breath [A Dance]



AWESOME! :D Psalm 150 in action!

This Is Not My Home



"I live here now. But this is not my home. How could it be?" spoke the elderly lady. "All over the world people got no home. Homeless people, refugees, paupers. We got no home. And when we do..."

This is a very beautiful video. And it left a lump in my throat. Watch and listen to this - once, and again. And I'm grateful to God that He gave me a home to be in - one on earth and one in heaven.

Reading...

Currently am reading "Approval Addiction". I've been reading this book for a while already, but honestly, I really do recommend this book - especially for people who struggle with emotional stability and security. Really thank God for the author who wrote this book - it's very edifying!

Almost every chapter is packed full of biblical principles and very practical advice on how to overcome these struggles with insecurity. But not just that, what I read helped me understand better why I feel insecure.

Hee! I think God really may be answering my prayer for emotional maturity through this book - somehow every chapter helps me see the Bible with a better understanding... it's more than the author's good words - it's the Word that her words point to. And ultimately that is what really matters - putting the word into action.

On a deeper note, the past books that I've been reading: "How People Grow", "Boundaries" and "Approval Addiction" have helped me grow in a deeper understanding of the brokenness of people. And I realised that honestly, when Jesus sees broken people like you and me - He doesn't see us with angry blazing eyes, but rather, a heart overflowing with compassion. Because He knows that you and I are like sheep without a shepherd. Oh, how He longs to gather us and protect us, as a mother hen gathers its chicks under its wings! How He longs to lead us to rest in green pastures, beside the quiet waters, to restore our souls! And oh, how He longs to be our very God, and we, His very people, whom He loves!

=D

Oh dear, I really want to type out everything I've learnt from this book, just to share with you, but I think I'll be flouting multiple copyright laws if I do that. *mutters to himself under his breath*

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Oh yes! Thanks so much Lord for this dear friend's SMS to me... it was a real surprise - totally out of the blue. But think it's very timely - especially the Bible verse that this friend messaged me:

Proverbs 27:19
As water reflects a face,
so a man's heart reflects the man.

It's especially encouraging because I believe it came as a reply to my prayer to God yesterday evening regarding some relationships that I've been working on to build.

And I think it came at the right timing, because my unit is moving to a new sub-district, with many new and unfamiliar faces. To be honest, I was praying and fasting last week, asking God for guidance where He wants me to go. It's very funny leh... the day before the announcement that my unit'd be moving to a new sub-d, I was telling God that wherever He'll call me to go, I'll go.

Was feeling a little worried, 'cos there's a lot of unfamiliar faces in the new sub-district. But again then, it only means one thing: that there's many more wonderful brothers and sisters to get to know! :D Amen and praise the Lord!

And wow, I do believe God did answer my personal prayer for guidance. I was thinking, does He want me to make my own choice here, or does He want me to wait upon Him for guidance? To answer my question, He encouraged me to seek Him for guidance, reminding me from Psalm 48:14: "For this God is our God for ever and ever; he will be our guide even to the end."

Through a series of events (esp some casual conversations with some brothers over the past few days), I think God's answer is increasingly clear here. :) Hee hee... and the interesting thing is, the sub-D I'm moving to is focusing on missions to Africa! Whee!

:D Hee... I'm thinking of signing up for the GoForth National Mission Conference soon... if you're interested in going too, let me know too - we could go together! I'm especially interested in the workshop about Social Enterprise... and Education... it's something that I feel a stirring in my heart for... to share and feed the next generation of children with the wonderfully and deliciously nutritious news of the Bread of Life - Jesus Christ! :D Yeah and Amen!
Just want to thank God for today :) And also for how He's been answering my prayers in very amazing ways.

Last week, I posted some prayer requests on Ps Jeff's blog. The first prayer was for me to grow in emotional stability. You know what? From last Wednesday, somehow God has been speaking to me through a Christian book I'm reading, a Bible verse: "and lead us not into temptation but deliver us from the evil one", and also prompting my heart to pray to Him daily to ask Him to grow me in emotional stability and security.

And the wonderful thing is, since that time, I find myself praying daily and constantly to God to help me guard my heart against negative thoughts and emotional insecurities. The miracle is, as one who is very prone to "approval addiction", other people's responses would affect me very much emotionally. But now they are affecting me less and less as I pray more and more to God.

I find that the peace of God that surpasseth all understanding is guarding my heart and my mind in Christ Jesus. Guard is the correct word here - the worries and anxiety of how people will see me - they do come, but now it's more like ... they are muffled now. Like how last time these negative thoughts and insecure ideas would bang so loudly on the doors of my mind that I would start panicking and be very affected. But now the "banging" is like them banging on increasingly stronger and thicker doors. Like trying to bang on solid oak doors - the thoughts are less and less overwhelming. And I have the quiet, gentle and assuring voice of the Holy Spirit reminding me that He who is in me is greater than the one who is in the world. That lends inner confidence to my soul.

Think that's a visual metaphor to describe how the healing of God is filling my mind even now. :) Hee hee! And as I abide in Him more and more, I find rest for my soul. No longer do I have to chase after people's approval - I've now found my place in His yoke, perfectly fitted and custom-moulded to what I am. "For My yoke is easy, and My burden is light." And so I know that I can be all that God has made me to be, no matter how others will see me, no matter how imperfect I am - for every imperfection that is in me is yet another opportunity to showcase His perfection.

Thank You Daddy. It is indeed so sweet to see the salvation of the Lord being worked out in my life, and the lives of all who love You, who have been called according to Your purpose. In the beautiful name of Jesus, Amen.

Sunday, February 24, 2008

His Eye Is On The Mynah

Today on my way to church I saw a dead mynah on the ground. It lay on the grass, and it looked as if it had died about a day ago.

Tenderly textured in soft broken feathers. I wonder how it died. Was it knocked down by a car as it flew? How young was it? Or was it old?

I had a pet mynah before - about two years ago - ever since it was a baby chick. We helped train it to fly on its own. And interestingly enough, my maid said she saw this particular mynah hopping around - not flying - and approaching strangers, in a chirping noise, as though asking for food.

That sounded so much like our mynah. (I still miss it.) I wonder if that was our mynah now on the grass. Could it have been...?

Only God knows.

And at that point, it struck me that hundreds of mynahs fly and die in one day. And not one of them falls and lie on the grass without Him seeing.

And if I noticed the death of a little bird, how much more our heavenly Father notices our lives!
Matthew 10:29-31
29Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from the will of your Father. 30And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. 31So don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.
This reminds me of a very beautiful old song that I read about ten years ago, when I first became a Christian.

His Eye Is On The Sparrow
Why should I feel discouraged, why should the shadows come,
Why should my heart be lonely, and long for heaven and home,
When Jesus is my portion? My constant friend is He:
His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me;
His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me!

[more...]
:)

500GB for less than $200 - thank God!

Just want to share this testimony of what God has done for me today - feel very touched by His sheer kindness and the favour that He gave me:
  1. For the prayer that I prayed to God this morning - that if He doesn't mind, that He'll help me find this particular Seagate hard-disk model that has 500GB of space - for less than $200. 'Cos I need to backup a few computers at home... and also need the additional harddisk space for some upcoming ministry video production.
  2. Then I went to Sim Lim. Met Edmund there. We scouted around for The 500GB Hard Disk. To our surprise, seems like this model we wanted was so popular that the first few shops we went to had all the other models in this particular line of HDDs, except that one. "All sold out!"
  3. So prayed that we could find that model, 'cos Seagate's HDDs are really good in quality (5 years warranty ok!), and it's cheap (not more than $217).
  4. Eventually we found the hard-disk model. Price: $217.
  5. Searched again: $209.
  6. At that point, I said to Edmund: "I think can buy now..."
  7. Edmund: "No, let's keep looking around."
  8. Found this Maxtor hard-disk for $199. Wow! I remembered my prayer in the morning. But... still decided to look for the Seagate model some more.
  9. Finally we came to this shop at Level 5. "Best Bargain". I went in, took a look... and lo and behold, on the shelves were a few "FreeAgent 500GB" HDDs by Seagate... for the heaven-sent price of (drum-roll, followed by the clash of cymbals) one-hundred-and-ninety-EIGHT dollars. $198. I double-checked. Yup, in Singapore dollars!
  10. Gleefully hefted the Preciousss to the counter.
  11. Asked the cashier - "Does the price include GST?" He looked at me and said, "Including GST."
  12. Edmund said knowingly when he heard the price: "It's the lowest already. For this kind, can't go any lower."
Wow. Thank God so much. Thank God for Edmund. And thank God - so very touched that He cares even for something as minor and as tiny as buying something. Whatever we need, if we ask, He will provide! Amen! When Jesus came to show us what the Father really was like, one of the ways that He showed us was to point to how the Father so lavishly fed cheap sparrows and watered perishable flowers.

:D "How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!"

Saturday, February 23, 2008

Vegetarian Presbyterians and Amen Street

Two taxi drivers on two different days:

Driver #1 drives past a church with a sign saying Presbyterian Church.
"How do you say that word... Presbiterian... you know, that word?"

"Pres-bit-ter-rian. You pronounce the 'y' as 'i'."

"Oh! Pres-bit-er-rian? That sounds a lot like 'vegetarian'! Hahaha!"



Driver #2, as I alight at Bible House, 7 Armenian Street, points to the signboard and says: "B-I-B-L-E... how you say it?"

"Bible."

He nods his head, and indicates the "Armenian Street". Making the sign of the cross, he queries: "Amen Street?"

"No, no, uncle... it's Armenian Street."

"Ah! Amen Street!"

"No lah uncle... Ah-Men-Nian... not Amen!"

"Amen Street! I see don't know how to pronounce!"

We break out into laughter.

A Bouquet of Thanksgiving!



Linguistic skills? Really meh? Thought my style is very plain words... just keep on using "hee" and "wow" and "thank God"... :P

But yeah, thank God for His grace... i do believe He has given me this strength in writing stories... 'cos i really loved to write stories back in primary school and kept on aceing my essays in writing competitions... and i always love to read a good story. =)

Hee! feel heartwarmed and encouraged by this friend's comment... whatever glory comes from this, it goes to You, Lord! Like how Corrie Ten Boom, whenever she received some praise for the day, she would, in a very childlike heart, kneel down at her bed, and lift these praises that she had received, to her Heavenly Daddy as though she were giving Him a bouquet of flowers: "This is for You, Lord!"

A Bouquet of Thanksgiving! Flowers of joy, of goodness, of peace, of love, of hope, of faith... there are so many flowers today that we can give God! What kind of flowers? As many as the flowers of the field, of the earth, of the galaxy! For each and every one of our lives are like flowers unto Him... tremulously frail, yet terribly sweet in His eyes.

"For all men are like grass, and all their glory is like the flowers of the field.
The grass withers, and the flowers fall, but the word of the Lord stands forever."

What do I have, that is not Yours? Or what can we give, that You have not given?
All we have are these lives, and that's what we give to You Lord.

Lord I offer my life to You
Everything I've been through
Use it for Your glory
Lord I offer my days to You
As a pleasing sacrifice...

Friday, February 22, 2008

A Little Girl Sings Indescribable

Oh my God... it's so beautiful, both the song lyrics and the little girl's simple and sweet melody!



Edited to add:
From Hong Teck's take on this video - felt it's so meaningful I want to share this with everyone who reads this:
What I like about this video is that, she’s 4 years old who sings like a 4 year old. A song that is not dumb down but to her ability and expressed like a child, not an adult.

There’s more to kid’s spirituality that mets the eye because we can unconsciously impose adult-like spirituality as standards for kids. While we like what we see in this one, this video shows us just a glimpse of kids spirituality.

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Outwardly they may jump around and appear distracted, but kids has their way of expressing it. It may not be the way we expect them to. We have a lot to learn about our spirituality as children of God. Lessons in authenticity, trust and a soft heart.


Seriously, we really must never look down at the childlike faith and simple-hearted trust of a little child. God knows that we have so much to learn from them. Literally.

If we think them as just cute but not really much to learn from, we are not seeing them as the Lord Himself sees them. And that is not right. Because the Lord Himself admonished the disciples - including you and me:
"Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it." And he took the children in his arms, put his hands on them and blessed them.


Something that touched me a lot last time, was when I was helping out in HopeTots one Sunday. Pastor Ben happened to be passing through the room to attend to other duties. As he made his way through the flock of children, I saw him quietly laying a hand on each one of their heads and whispering a silent prayer for each one of them. And that little act felt so much like what Jesus Himself would do. :D

As I was reading 1 Samuel, I saw how Samuel grew up, a little boy as the Bible notes, ministering before the Lord in his little ephod. Yes, he WAS cute in his little linen tunic, but he was ministering before the Lord too. Never, never, never ever underestimate the power of God to use a little child to teach us "grown-ups". For we are really all children before God.

Children are truly a great blessing from God - not only for parents, but for all who will stop to look and learn. May we always learn to grow more childlike in heart as we grow older in body each day.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Something funny that I read just now...

For the record, I did not create this topic. -- top

Nor did I. -- bottom

Don't look at me. -- middle

You guys are making my sides hurt. -- side

Let Me Pray With You…

Hi dear bros and sisters, Pastor Jeff is offering to pray for whatever prayer requests we have. Do drop a prayer need/request on his blog (anonymously if you want)!

During the worship services, it is difficult to have the time to pray for many of you. So what I want to do in this entry is to ask you to let me have your prayer requests and needs. I will set aside time on Wednesday (20 February) at around noon to pray with you.

If you are comfortable about it, you can make your prayer points as specific as possible and even leave me your actual name. If not, just leave your initials (real or otherwise in a not so obvious way).

Either you are from Singapore or anywhere in the universe, I will pray along with you.

Boasting about my weaknesses

After reading a post by another friend just now on standing firm, I realize that often, we're ashamed to boast of our weaknesses. Thank God for this friend - realised even though she struggles with emotional stability (like me), she still takes a childlike delight in learning from her emotional experiences! :) Very inspired by her childlike attitude of learning from others even when she's down. Thank God for you, sis, your actual sphere of influence extends far beyond what you think it is!

This point struck me again (as it has been appearing to me again and again and again for the past three or four days - I kid you not)...
Paul is another funny guy. Paul boasted about his weaknesses! The list is so long, I was very impressed. And the weirdness thing was that he did not complain about it or pity himself, like I would. I would go, "why am I so unlucky. why do bad things keep happening to me. God, what are you doing. Why didn't you prevent these bad things from happening?"


Wow! :) Boasting about my weaknesses... it does take humility to be willing to look like a fool so that Christ's power may be magnified.

It's like a little boy pushing an extremely rock... and his dad helps him carry it...

The proud little boy will say, "I did it all by myself!"

The humble little boy will say, "My Daddy helped me carry it! See how strong my Daddy is!" :)

Hee! Wouldn't it bring a smile to my Daddy's heart, just to hear these words?

Thank You Lord... for these few days of emotional consolidation. Oh God... I do want to grow more and more in the joy of Your salvation every day! :)

And now, Lord, let these words translate into good deeds that please You.

Monday, February 18, 2008

Prayer:
Lord, help me stay cool and not panicky, when things go wrong and my teammates want to know what happened - esp when there's a delay bcos of the machine problem.

Something I learnt from reflecting is that a simple case of explaining factually and objectively the problems will simply reassure and help my teammates understand. Stay calm, YA. Don't lose yer head... even tho IT's the most stressful profession haha. :P

Blog Post from Pastor PK of Hope London

I read this email (also as a blog post) from Pastor PK, who is pastor of our sister church, Hope London. (I've bolded the part that think is particularly relevant to us young working adults.)
The Archbishop Rowan Willaims, Head of the 80m Anglican Communion worldwide, provoked outrage when he suggested on February 7th that the adoption of elements of Islamic sharia law in Britain was "unavoidable". This underminded further his authority in trying to bring unity to the Communion which has been divided over the issue of homosexuality between the liberals and the conservatives in the Communion.

This also weakens the position of the state church which has been seen by the increasingly secular Britain as privileged yet irrelevant. By trying to extend religious rights that Christians enjoy to the Muslims, it actually upsets the secularists further. They are already calling for a smaller official role of the church in Britain. At present 25 bishops sit in the House of Lords.

I personally believe that Christians have to find their voice in society like anyone else, without any advantage over non-Christians. To demonstrate our faith and the greatness of our God, we have to reflect God's greatness in our lives. This means that Christians have to raise the bar in our performance in the classroom or in the workplace, wherever God puts us. There is a greater need for us to shine for Jesus in the world in order to attract people unto Him. Whilst the classroom continues to be a fertile ground for harvest, I believe that the marketplace is where the biggest battle for souls is fought. The challenge is immense; serving God, not money. The key is living out the Gospel with the help of God.

I count myself privileged to be playing this dual role of serving in the church and actively engaging people in the world (in the marketplace). Christians can no longer afford to be marginalised and silenced in the market place. Our voice should become louder and louder based on merits; and actions speak louder than words. When people in the world, who are seeking the truth, see Christians succeeding by living out Jesus' principles, they will be attracted to Jesus. The Word of God in [Prov 29:2] "When the righteous thrive, the people rejoice...." will come true. [read more...]
It gave me pause, 'cos given my natural personality, to be honest, I very much prefer to go along with the majority opinion... to lie low if there's public debate and battle among the Christians and the secularists ('cos I've been of the opinion that church and state should be separated.) 'Cos Jesus said to Caesar's representative, "My Kingdom is not of this world..."

But after reading this post, and thinking back to our Sub-D vision again, and remembering one bro's anger at how the (pathetic) movie "The Mist" portrayed Christianity in a very ridiculous and untrue light, think I understand better now. It's really about character in the marketplace... and godly character will bring about God's success God's way. Our role is simply to be ambassadors for Christ, in word and in deed; let His light shine off us, into the world around us.

Still thinking how I can apply this here in my own life.
Thank You also for KS who came for service today. :) And that he was really touched by the New Testament I gave him... esp since he doesn't have a Bible at home.

Thank You for sending him along... and for using someone like me.

Thank You for Your grace, testing me and putting me through moments of insecurity... knowing that You are training me to be more and more secure in You.

And thank You so much for Yanjie's looking-out for me. :D Felt very touched by his thoughtfulness... and I learnt a very practical thing about caring for your friends from his example that day. (And a deeper understanding of what caused me to make the decision to sulk in my insecurity, worrying frantically in my heart what others will think of me for "disappearing" even though I had told someone else in advance...) instead of deciding to have a Christlike attitude... ah! another time, the test will come again...

Thank You also for the sermon today - it was really very meaningful... the yoke... You are alongside me! :) that You pull the yoke together with me.

Thank You for the soccer match today, and how You helped me have the right spirit... for Jason's great spirit, that inspired me too to give my best... and I know that You see my heart, even though I lack skill.

Thank You esp for Huaqiang's helping me (tog with what You spoke to me in prayer a few days before) understand that my expectations regarding my CG have to be adjusted... about having new "wineskins" in the Adults ministry ...

And thank You for helping me understand today that even though the "wineskins" in Adults ministry is very different from the students ministry... the motivation behind the different approaches and structures is one and the same: Love God and love His people. =)

And thank You for putting thoughts of goodness into my mind, thoughts such that You enabled me to be happy once more, and to really have a good time with the other bros and sisters... and now, I find freedom to care much more for my CG... what a freedom it is, when you finally understand... it frees you to really give without any expectations of receiving in return... truly, Jesus, as You said, "It is more blessed to give than to receive." AMEN! :D
Dear God, You really are very concerned about the world, and You really want the world to be blessed, especially in coming to know You, and Your one and only Son. Yet there are hearts that will not accept Your love or trust You or even hate and reject You.

And yet You send the rain upon both the righteous and the wicked, and even upon those who don't know You yet, you satisfy their desires with good things and fill their hearts with joy.

And for all those who desire to know who You truly are, regardless of race, language or religion... not what their cultures or religions have taught them... You have always promised that those who seek You with all their hearts will find You, and You WILL be found by them.

I'm so amazed at Your heartbeat for people... when You came down as a man, You didn't have to meet our physical needs, yet You came and turned water into wine... You healed the sick... You fed the multitudes... You came to give peace and healing to the mentally insane and spiritually tormented and the emotionally wrecked people... You came to teach us how life really works, about loving our neighbour as ourselves, be it friend or foe.

And You came to exercise justice for the downtrodden, the oppressed, the poor and the helpless. You are their Defender, and the Judge of all the earth.

I'm so amazed at Your sheer goodness and love for all peoples on the earth...

And just before You left this world to go back to the Father, You told us to spread the good news to all the peoples of the earth... to teach them to love You and love one another...

Dear Father, I pray in Jesus' name, please help me grow, that my love may increase in knowledge and depth of insight... a wiser love... a deeper understanding... that i can be good... and do good too, to bring glory and praise to You, Lord! :)

Mmm! People do want to help make this world a better place... but only You have the power to make the hearts of men a better place. And when the hearts of men are right, the world will become one heart brighter at a time... one less evil person, one more good person. =)

Thank You also for giving me this wonderful calling to minister to children, and the blessing of this job too as a software engineer. 'Cos through these skills and talents You have given me, I know that (maybe this is one way) I can help teach useful skills to children... to help train them in IT skills, which is now so important in any economy... and to tell them about the love of God the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit.

To be used by God to help fill people's stomachs, minds and souls. =) Isn't it so exciting to think of what the Lord can do through you and me, each in his/her unique way, to make this world a better place? :)

In Jesus' most precious name, amen!

God's Eternal Ink and The Last Lecture

Read a transcript of Randy Pausch's The Last Lecture... here's a video of the Last Lecture with English/German subtitles.

Then read this poem from Shuyi's blog... it's a very thought-provoking and heart-stirring poem indeed!

Together, these two articles made me pause and think: How do we live a life that truly counts in God's eyes? And how will we know that we're on the right track?

Then to help myself answer these two questions... I'm thinking of what the Bible says about this...

Friday, February 15, 2008

Renewal!

Was walking home from work (yes, I'm that fortunate haha... XD thank God!) just now, and was reflecting on today's experiences. One of the experiences that I had today was that of reformatting a computer to ensure a stable installation of some complex software.

Then the word "old wineskins" came to mind. And some accompanying memories too. Think God is telling me that I need to let Him renew my mind, to be "made new in the attitude of my mind."

And I remember that I have certain mindsets that hold me back from being effective for God. From time to time I breakthrough, but slowly after that I slide back into my old ways. Like how a pristine computer, when you first get it, is so fast and so new. But as it accumulates more junk and software and spyware, etc... it becomes extremely slow and sometimes, even useless.

Thus! There comes the time when you simply must stop everything you're doing and strip the computer back to basics. Back to its original factory-fresh state. Unhindered, uncorrupted.

Reminds how back two years ago, God really helped me breakthrough in relationships. And He really saved me from a major lie in my mind that I'd been listening to - and how it was ruining my life. It was so wonderful - my CL and some of the brothers and sisters testified how different my spirit was.

And one of the sweetest and most amazing things was that He took away this continual sense of loneliness that'd been plaguing me for many years. He took it away so completely that I never even knew it was gone - that's the way Jesus can really satisfy your heart and mind so completely and fully that "the former things shall not be remembered, nor will they come to mind." (Isaiah 65:17b) And it's not merely metaphorical - God really was speaking literally when He said those wonderful words!

But as time passed by after that major breakthrough, I let my insecurities and the same old lies start creeping back in. And to be honest, the Enemy reminded me again and again of my old past, and I started getting very discouraged. (Forgive me, Pa, for allowing the devil to remind me again of my past... I should be reminding him of what You say about his future!)

But again, God is so faithful. He sent me people to remind me of the truth that has set me free. So I got up again. And so on and so forth. But right now, I see some things from the past being repeated again, and the old cold loneliness starting to creep in again. But thank God for His grace, reminding me to guard my heart here - because it is for freedom that Christ has set me free. So stand firm then and do not let myself be burdened again by a yoke of slavery!

So likewise, after reinstalling Windows, I also must reapply again the service packs - from service pack 1 to service pack 2 (and eventually to service pack 3). And reapply all the relevant updates.

Same goes for my walk with God. Even after being renewed, I need to sharpen again and refresh and renew my knowledge of God, renew my first love for Him, renew the truths and upgrade my spiritual "service packs" that help protect me from Satan's "viruses and spyware" that continually assault my mind. To double-check the "firewall" of God's Word, to make sure I haven't dropped my guard and accidentally allowed any "security breaches" that allow Satan's devastating deceptions to come in and destroy my mind.
Galatians 5:1
It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery.
Amen!