Oh, My Goodness.

(Lord, I want to be more thoughtful and sacrificial towards others. More servant-hearted. Just feel ... quite ... sigh. That I'm not being the best that God made me to be, even at the current level.

And more Word-centered. And less of an ass.

Yet I know also I'm trying to earn approval from others by being good, or at least matching up to their standards of good. Or perhaps at least the corporate standard of goodness as we understand God's standard to be.

These are days I find it so hard to be a Christian. When the weight of fears and struggling to meet up to some perceived standard of goodness come upon me.

And that sound of grace is but a distant echo in my mind.)

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