Nachos and Breadcrumbs

Feel troubled and insecure again. While others wish Happy New Year, I wonder whether there's any meaning to that, and also, whether my own wishes would make a difference? One thing I've observed on Facebook, for example, the number of likes is pre-determined not by the quality of the person's sharing, but whether that person is popular.

So I often wonder, is it worth the time and effort?

*shrugs*

Perhaps it's not worth the time and effort. But I remember telling a sister who was afraid to encourage others: Sis, just go ahead and encourage. I had a bro who told me that I should copy-paste the Bible passage I'm referring to, while another bro told me I should just give the reference. Go figure... so just go and encourage in your own way lor.

*shrugs*

"To what can I compare this generation?"

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Nachos

:) Sorry, just some melancholic snippets.

Oh btw Journey 2 was great! Adventure and all that. Nice feel-good movie - perfect for a family outing. I like what Dwayne Johnson's character said about responsibility. :) Good manly role-model. Even the father character, who played a silly joker, was a caring and a devoted man who literally went the extra mile to try and find a way to raise $ for his daughter's college education. Touching.

:) Plus I was happy to see that the script, while stretching the limits of credulity at times (but hey, it's a sci-fi movie for the family, so who cares?), was tightly written and well-constructed. No silly irrelevant details - everything played a part. Shows good quality and smooth pacing too... :)

My mum loved it, so am happy to see it made her laugh.

Bought nachos for the family too. It's a nice thing to be able to treat my family to snacks, especially out of my own pocket.

*pause*

Time's passing by fast. They're growing older and older. Some day I'll have to say goodbye to them for the last time here... but at least I'll see them in heaven. :)

But I wish it didn't have to be this way. But that's the fact of life here - almost everyone has to cross life's chilling Jordan River. =)

So, as Jim Elliot said, "Wherever you are, be all there." :)

Not a long life, Lord, but a full one.

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Ah. Japan. Yet more challenges await. First the planned trip to Ecuador got changed. But now there's an opportunity to go to Japan with Huanyan. But I may get delayed, as my sister is coming from England with her family to visit us for ten days. It's confirmed already - from 9 to 19 March. Huanyan would likely fly off on 17. So maybe I'll have to fly off on Monday? Really unsure how everything is going.

But haha! I'm coming to expect it, and welcome the uncertainty in life - not for its own sake, but as a way for me to see God's steadfastness and faithfulness in all these. I'm not trying to talk positive here - I think that's as helpful as playing cheerful music on the deck of the Titanic, but I'm simply choosing to see the spiritual reality here - and it really is good. Just like what Caleb and Joshua said about the Promised Land: "We can certainly take the land, because the LORD is with us."

Well. Choices here and there.

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Breadcrumbs

Just prayed and prophesised what I sensed to a couple of dear friends. It's never easy. Even when it's a good word, I keep on saying it in a strongly-worded way. I wish I didn't say like that. Yet... if it's from the Lord, how else can I put it?

Sad. Even when I'm announcing good news. Worried whether it sounds judgmental. God judges, not me... yet, well... sigh. Never mind. They often shoot the messengers of bad news, so I'll just have to get used to it. Praise the Lord and pass the ammo' - glory hallelujah - 'cos I'm gonna see Him real soon.

But happy to see a dear friend respond with joy. :)

Am I making too much out of this prophetic ministry? No, I don't think so. I just think not many of us have dared to explore this aspect much more, even though Scripture clearly says that He gave first, apostles, secondly, prophets... and so on...

So I'm journalling down breadcrumbs. It's nice to know God chose a former skeptic like me to have the gift of prophecy... 'cos I'm probably the most skeptical person when it comes to evaluating the prophecies. Haha... But yes, heartening too to see a bro from another church - he's a brilliant scholar, a former atheist and a top-notch mathematician - exercising the gift of prophecy too. Supernatural indeed... but I think that's a beautiful characteristic of God: He chose the things that are not to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before Him. Like, choosing former skeptics and atheists to claim to hear from God directly. It's so preposterous that only God can do such a wonderful thing. "The stone the builders rejected has become the capstone; the LORD has done this and it is marvellous in our eyes." AMEN!